so what else?

I constantly have to remind myself of the things I can do to better utilize my time.

Things that don’t cost me anything or much:

1. Read – started reading the book dearie helped me borrow from NTU business library. Fooled by Randomness. I am already feeling it is a good read and I might want to get my hands on a copy to keep.

2. Practise the piano – this is something I can definitely do more about..but I’m always full of excuses about it. I think I make too much noise; I need a silent piano. I think my current piano sound unpleasant; I need a new piano. After going round and round the bush, it all boils down to this – I don’t play and practice enough to sound good. That’s the truth which I am trying to hide from; giving excuses that I need a new piano in order to reignite my fervor for playing.

3. Read more Chinese books and newspapers – I do need to polish up on my Chinese. I miss reading my zhang xiao xian novels..but I can’t seem to find any pdf versions of them to download. I’m wondering if I can retrieve my old copies of her novels from the store room and re-read them all over again. Then again, I’m unsure where are they sitting in my mummy’s storeroom.

4. Self study – that’s a big big thing I need to do..which is seemingly vague, isn’t it?

Things that will cost me much:

1. Learn a new language – via classes. I’ve got no idea how much it’ll cost me, but I’m sure it’ll be a long term investment (spanning over 2-3years at least) and long term commitment to attend classes

2. Go for a 1 year course on something – I have yet to figure what that something can be. Real estate management? Economics? Do the CFA (which will probably take me a lot longer than 1 year and heaps more effort/brain cells)?

3. Buy a new piano (a grand will be so nice) and start some lessons perhaps – it’ll be nice to start learning again. Nice is the word. But no practicality in it though. I don’t intend to retake my diploma again because I have no confidence I can commit the time and effort into the process. I don’t think I am talented and I know because I do not have the flair, I need to put in double if not triple the effort.

4. Find more income generating work – I can see dearie mumbling, “what?!” when he reads this. But I think I have enough drive to do more. But realistically, I can’t think of any part time job flexible enough to fit into the time I have left. This is more like a want-to-do (if I have 48hours a day) but cannot-do.

And so, conclusion is, i have to do more than what I am doing now. I need to find time, get rid of excuses and prioritise what I have to do. After all, this second spent will never come back again. We only live this life once.

needless blog & things

why am i feeling this sense of detachment from blogging these days?

feels like i've grown out of this space. maybe there's less i want to let others know.. and more i'll like to hide within my walls of defense.

i am working my way through the school of hard knocks. painful but necessary.

i am learning to give thanks more than whine about things. at least i have made it so far, though the sky seems limitless.

still waiting for a holiday. but the word is wait. it's not time yet.

almost time for work soon.

i feel an impetus to go shopping. buy some new things for myself and dearie. you know? pretty things. new shoes. new clothes. new bags. that sort of things that's classified more of wants than needs. needless. useless at times. but like chocolates, they give u some momentary happiness when you first hold them in your hands. i just feel like i should do some needless things! haha.

a little more won't harm

entries on this blog have slowed down by a whole lot.. which is pretty contrary to what is happening at work. which is not altogether a bad thing.

and so, pace at work has picked up a whole lot. time passes so quickly. alot to learn.

i walked into clarke quay for the first time in my life. i have often walked pass but have never walked into it. it's a nice place. i never expected it to look so good honestly.

managed to practise a little on the piano. i still sound horrible. and i still wish i had a new piano though i definitely don't deserve one.

wanted to officially retire my asics cumulus but i still put it back to my shoe rack in case i needed it. the plan was to go for seoul marathon first half of this year. however, due to the new job, it'll have to be put on hold. asics running shoes there are priced cheaper than those in singapore. i doubt i'll get any holiday from now till 3rd quarter this year. so meantime, i'll make do with the tempo and see how long more the verona can last.

it will be good to have more to go around..then i won't be thinking if i have budget for things which will be nice to have. maybe i might be a little more generous to those around me? haha.

alright. got to research on fct perpetual preference shares and read my cash mangement book. this will help my work next week. jia you!