Walls

This has been a tough year. Hitting one wall after another. I hope i am getting stronger through it and not dying from a hemorrhage.

why is it so hard

how do i become more self sufficient? how can i not be at the mercy of constraints? it is just about the money issue. who pays the extra? i don't mind taking on the inconvenience but will it work? how do i find a solution which will benefit all? i wish i had more time on my side so that i can make things work out right and make everyone happy.

chore

eating to me is a chore. to order food for others is an absolute pain. everyone should just feed themselves.