after reviewing my training programme, it left me in dismay. the fact that im langkawi is drawing so near further drew me into disheartenment.
i need to get my training going. i have to exercise discipline to carry myself through the next few months of training.
older folks would often rattle this off "you don't help yourself, no one can help you." that is so true for me now. =(
as i pondered on how better should i be doing things, iggy's words came to me. don't think so much, so go out and do it.
and so i slipped into my running shoes and went for a run outside. it's definitely better than shutting myself within 4 walls wondering what training should i do ..blah blah blah..
i sailed through my 1.03 bike module today..proceed to module 2! yay! 8 modules to get that license and i am heading at it till the end! =) in comparison of the 2 (driving vs biking)..driving is easier in the sense there's no need for balancing and not that exposed...but biking is more fun..i love the wind blowing in my face! yay..goin 40kmh within bbdc's circuit today was a not too bad an experience. i want to go on the main road soon! =D
as stress and unhappiness levels rockets up at work, i'm often found munching in office. =( gosh. fat. fat. fat.
i've got 2 kgs to lose.. or if i could, another 3-4kgs to cut off. oh..please..tricia..stop munching junk food!
it's finally Friday..let's see how things turn out tomorrow. i can't wait.
Thursday, November 30, 2006
Wednesday, November 29, 2006
brainwrecked
tricia is
-brain wrecked
-junk food filled
-fat
-restless
-an escapist.. heehehe
spent the morning reading many things up.
-treatment for eczema
-compiling swim training stuff
-badminton rules
-finding a swim coach
i'm brain wrecked! =S
won't be continuing with shifu next year as i find forking out close to $500 very heavy on my budget. however i would still like to find a group/class which i can join in order to leverage on the competition. however finding a class/coach is really nerve wrecking. doing a search on goggle is only giving me hits to the bigger schools which are expensive and some narcissistic swim coaches whose faces turn me utterly off.
bored. tonight got to OT till 8+. siannnnn ah!!! get over with it..and done with. friday is MY DAY! ho ho hooooo!!
-brain wrecked
-junk food filled
-fat
-restless
-an escapist.. heehehe
spent the morning reading many things up.
-treatment for eczema
-compiling swim training stuff
-badminton rules
-finding a swim coach
i'm brain wrecked! =S
won't be continuing with shifu next year as i find forking out close to $500 very heavy on my budget. however i would still like to find a group/class which i can join in order to leverage on the competition. however finding a class/coach is really nerve wrecking. doing a search on goggle is only giving me hits to the bigger schools which are expensive and some narcissistic swim coaches whose faces turn me utterly off.
bored. tonight got to OT till 8+. siannnnn ah!!! get over with it..and done with. friday is MY DAY! ho ho hooooo!!
Monday, November 27, 2006
life beckons, let's go into recluse
woke up with a sore throat and runny nose. took a day off. the whole camp botch up is leaving me really peeved. everything is about image..image..image.. well, easy for u guys to just question about why cancelling, why not running..and then do an abrupt decision that we'll run with no minimum.. easier said than done. well, if you want to truly lead, then why don't you guys spearhead it rather than kick us on the boot and make us do something we don't believe in.
i'm utterly disgusted and peeved.
this friday is break free day. like it or not, i'm only giving myself till friday. it's been drafted. and it'll be promptly printed and submitted. it's my turn to make my move after christin. i wish she could do it with me too..but i'm aware of her concerns and reservations. she's made the initial move to tell nel about her decision to move on and it hasn't done her good in any ways at all. i wonder what i'll do in her shoes.. instead of constantly having to entertain his insensitive questioning on the response from mcys, from a rash point of view, tender la! walk out of this mambo-jumbo for good. far too much bad energy..it's gnawing on us. but of course, every decision entails far more implications..so though i would really want to just tender if and get over with it, there are consequences i must be ready to face up towards. sigh. if only life is simpler right?
spent the morning clearing my room a little. wiped off dust from the fixtures..threw a number of things here and there. prior to this last week, i was also clearing my workstation. i'm gearing myself to move off..i don't want to move a box of personal items on the last day, hence the stance of packing them all into a bag and gradually bringing an item or two back.
marathon's this sunday. i'm totally not ready for it. i would choose to not do it..but since paid for, maybe i'll just suffer through the 6 hours. again not something called for. heh.
every part of me feel sore. maybe it stems from my mind. i'm just feeling totally sore with life.
i wish i had a car now. drive up somewhere. to the mountains. to the seaside. go into recluse. drive down a long winding, never ending high way. let's not care where it leads too. just move, ahead.
run. i need to go for a run to get an endorphine-shot.
when life beckons, we can't run away from it.
i'm utterly disgusted and peeved.
this friday is break free day. like it or not, i'm only giving myself till friday. it's been drafted. and it'll be promptly printed and submitted. it's my turn to make my move after christin. i wish she could do it with me too..but i'm aware of her concerns and reservations. she's made the initial move to tell nel about her decision to move on and it hasn't done her good in any ways at all. i wonder what i'll do in her shoes.. instead of constantly having to entertain his insensitive questioning on the response from mcys, from a rash point of view, tender la! walk out of this mambo-jumbo for good. far too much bad energy..it's gnawing on us. but of course, every decision entails far more implications..so though i would really want to just tender if and get over with it, there are consequences i must be ready to face up towards. sigh. if only life is simpler right?
spent the morning clearing my room a little. wiped off dust from the fixtures..threw a number of things here and there. prior to this last week, i was also clearing my workstation. i'm gearing myself to move off..i don't want to move a box of personal items on the last day, hence the stance of packing them all into a bag and gradually bringing an item or two back.
marathon's this sunday. i'm totally not ready for it. i would choose to not do it..but since paid for, maybe i'll just suffer through the 6 hours. again not something called for. heh.
every part of me feel sore. maybe it stems from my mind. i'm just feeling totally sore with life.
i wish i had a car now. drive up somewhere. to the mountains. to the seaside. go into recluse. drive down a long winding, never ending high way. let's not care where it leads too. just move, ahead.
run. i need to go for a run to get an endorphine-shot.
when life beckons, we can't run away from it.
Friday, November 24, 2006
picking up the pieces
christin received a few big "bombs" this morning..one of which also hit me straight on.
sigh. days here are getting tougher by the minute.
packed my table yesterday. threw a alot of stuff away..and brought some of the materials i wanted to keep, back home. i've still got a whole bag of things to bring home. will have to slowly move them a little at a time.
2.4km interval run yesterday proved to be quite a challenge for the slug who slacked through her weeks. nonetheless i'm glad i've made the first step to pick up momentum. billy had a hard time reaching his pb too.. fret not!..i'm sure we'll do better in the weeks to come. with more training, we'll be in shape!
sigh. days here are getting tougher by the minute.
packed my table yesterday. threw a alot of stuff away..and brought some of the materials i wanted to keep, back home. i've still got a whole bag of things to bring home. will have to slowly move them a little at a time.
2.4km interval run yesterday proved to be quite a challenge for the slug who slacked through her weeks. nonetheless i'm glad i've made the first step to pick up momentum. billy had a hard time reaching his pb too.. fret not!..i'm sure we'll do better in the weeks to come. with more training, we'll be in shape!
Thursday, November 23, 2006
t for tenacity
tricia has been such a slug for the past 2 weeks. bleah. how am i going to rev up my training. -bangs wall-
tricia is in search of vitamin T..t for tenacity.
yea..while some things are working out really well, some ain't.
i passed my 1.02 syllabus for biking yesterday. yay! riding a bike isn't that tough after all. =) i've booked my 1.03 on next thurs. really no choice because it's the ONLY day next week with the 8am slot so i've no choice to book it though i know we have meetings on thursday mornings. 1.03 will be done at the bigger circuit..woohoo!!
my zen was salvaged but at the expense of a total brainwash..it's been formatted..and *poof* goes all my 1700 mp3s. sigh! have to go thru a 'total recall' exercise soon.. can't imagine going through the manual tagging process..AWWW MAN!!
a good habit has been formed..we've kinda gotten used to eating yummy-licious cooked oats in the morning.. experts say habits take 1-2weeks to ingrain into us..i guess 1 more week of that and we'll be totally immersed into the way of having healthy fibrous oats for bfast every morning.
i've kinda kicked the habit of bread nibbling for lunch. now it's hamburger biscuits! hahaha..isn't any better isn't it? =X
time to exhaust those 2 boxes of quakers instant oats on my kitchen table. frankly the strawberry flavoured one sucks..but no choice la..shouldn't be wasting food..hence i'll be planning to consume it as lunch for the next 2 weeks to come. also a good move to save money and wean off my hamburger biscuits.
another driving lesson tomorrow then it'll be a break next week from driving. commencing a new routine of driving-once-a-week come november. i'm spreading my my lessons out as test date is on 8mar..so i need to space out wisely so i'm still in touch with the car by my test date. a concern is just that as i move off from new life, it'll become increasingly tougher to attend lessons in the morning.
i'm looking forward to change. change will be beneficial for me at this point in time. a new environment, a new set of challenges, new opportunities to learn from people who are good at what they do - that's probably what entices me.
rain. there has been alot of water falling from the sky these months. gee. my spirit has also been washed out by the rain as well.
tenacity..where art thou??
i better find it soon.
tricia is in search of vitamin T..t for tenacity.
yea..while some things are working out really well, some ain't.
i passed my 1.02 syllabus for biking yesterday. yay! riding a bike isn't that tough after all. =) i've booked my 1.03 on next thurs. really no choice because it's the ONLY day next week with the 8am slot so i've no choice to book it though i know we have meetings on thursday mornings. 1.03 will be done at the bigger circuit..woohoo!!
my zen was salvaged but at the expense of a total brainwash..it's been formatted..and *poof* goes all my 1700 mp3s. sigh! have to go thru a 'total recall' exercise soon.. can't imagine going through the manual tagging process..AWWW MAN!!
a good habit has been formed..we've kinda gotten used to eating yummy-licious cooked oats in the morning.. experts say habits take 1-2weeks to ingrain into us..i guess 1 more week of that and we'll be totally immersed into the way of having healthy fibrous oats for bfast every morning.
i've kinda kicked the habit of bread nibbling for lunch. now it's hamburger biscuits! hahaha..isn't any better isn't it? =X
time to exhaust those 2 boxes of quakers instant oats on my kitchen table. frankly the strawberry flavoured one sucks..but no choice la..shouldn't be wasting food..hence i'll be planning to consume it as lunch for the next 2 weeks to come. also a good move to save money and wean off my hamburger biscuits.
another driving lesson tomorrow then it'll be a break next week from driving. commencing a new routine of driving-once-a-week come november. i'm spreading my my lessons out as test date is on 8mar..so i need to space out wisely so i'm still in touch with the car by my test date. a concern is just that as i move off from new life, it'll become increasingly tougher to attend lessons in the morning.
i'm looking forward to change. change will be beneficial for me at this point in time. a new environment, a new set of challenges, new opportunities to learn from people who are good at what they do - that's probably what entices me.
rain. there has been alot of water falling from the sky these months. gee. my spirit has also been washed out by the rain as well.
tenacity..where art thou??
i better find it soon.
Monday, November 20, 2006
plans plans plans
driving is becoming a real joy these days. i learnt how to stop and move off on a slope. mr liew made it even better when he played all the super nice songs on his new sony ericsson hp to keep me entertained. singing along with all my hubby's (wong lee hom, obviously) songs..wooohooo!
the first day from the supposedly planned training, didn't quite fall into place as hoped for. billy's down with some symptoms of mononueclosis as well.. gee. that kind of fatigue which once consumed me, is now gnawing on him. =( i hope he gets well soon..rest is paramount!
i worked on a draft budget which will be put for a variance test in the month of december. i'll like to see how much real would differ from budgetted. that'll help the budget exercise for 2007 tremendously.
november is coming to an end soon. christin and i are really hoping to hear from the people we want to hear from. moving on. i hope the next job would free my finances more so i can drop the weekend job.
guess what my friends! i gotten the 2nd interview with RJC! it'll be tomorrow at 1pm. really praying i get this job!! Father Lord, please open this door! =)
the first day from the supposedly planned training, didn't quite fall into place as hoped for. billy's down with some symptoms of mononueclosis as well.. gee. that kind of fatigue which once consumed me, is now gnawing on him. =( i hope he gets well soon..rest is paramount!
i worked on a draft budget which will be put for a variance test in the month of december. i'll like to see how much real would differ from budgetted. that'll help the budget exercise for 2007 tremendously.
november is coming to an end soon. christin and i are really hoping to hear from the people we want to hear from. moving on. i hope the next job would free my finances more so i can drop the weekend job.
guess what my friends! i gotten the 2nd interview with RJC! it'll be tomorrow at 1pm. really praying i get this job!! Father Lord, please open this door! =)
Saturday, November 18, 2006
what a long saturday
been sick since the completion of powerman.
mononueclosis.
starting from scratch again is hard. my legs are heavy, my breathes are short. but i got to pick myself up again. because tricia is a fighter. and she doesn't give up without a fight.
today's the big move day. if only i needn't work, then at least i would be able to help out. we're living closer to each other now..so no excuses not to go training..coz to complete ironman victoriously is our dreams alike.
working till 6pm today. after which it's off to novena square to get my tunic dress. i fell in love with it when i saw it at the cck outlet..unfortunately they have ran out s size..but the nice sale lady located a new piece at novena..hope it'll be available when i get there later. tricia with a dress..haha..that's something new.
boring day at work..can't wait to the end of it..tomorrow it's back to work (AGAIN!)..
enough of rants..i'm out.
mononueclosis.
starting from scratch again is hard. my legs are heavy, my breathes are short. but i got to pick myself up again. because tricia is a fighter. and she doesn't give up without a fight.
today's the big move day. if only i needn't work, then at least i would be able to help out. we're living closer to each other now..so no excuses not to go training..coz to complete ironman victoriously is our dreams alike.
working till 6pm today. after which it's off to novena square to get my tunic dress. i fell in love with it when i saw it at the cck outlet..unfortunately they have ran out s size..but the nice sale lady located a new piece at novena..hope it'll be available when i get there later. tricia with a dress..haha..that's something new.
boring day at work..can't wait to the end of it..tomorrow it's back to work (AGAIN!)..
enough of rants..i'm out.
Monday, November 13, 2006
life's passage
i scrapped pass powerman..i felt like a slow coach during this race, for some reason or another. the brutal sun baked all the participants during the first run. come the bike leg, a downpour drenched everyone to the skin. crosswind made some wobble on their bikes, i was no exception. second run was comparatively more manageable.. alas, crossing the finish line was sweet, like always. =)
staying awake through a 7+7hour car ride was challenging. loads of junk food helped..but it definitely added to the fats encapsulating my body. -gulps-
marathon's up next and i'm feeling strangely inadequate. mileage is kinda messed up with the impromptu breaks.. i shan't bear too much hope i reckon..
interview on friday went pretty alright, apart from some nervous pangs that went off when i entered the room with 3 interviewers - 2 ladies and 1 guy. i can only hope for the best right now..i'm really keen to take up with job.. so let's hope God opens this distant door for me.
will be working at nl through the weekend. 7days in nl for this week. -whines- on the brighter side of things, at least i'll finish around 2pm on sunday..so that leaves the rest of the day to be utilised for a probable badminton game.
tomorrow is motorbike lesson 2. gulps. back to the freaking heavy bike!
for today.. i'm going straight home to rest. tomorrow, training resumes. big dream is still langkawi.. and that'll be my driving force for now!
staying awake through a 7+7hour car ride was challenging. loads of junk food helped..but it definitely added to the fats encapsulating my body. -gulps-
marathon's up next and i'm feeling strangely inadequate. mileage is kinda messed up with the impromptu breaks.. i shan't bear too much hope i reckon..
interview on friday went pretty alright, apart from some nervous pangs that went off when i entered the room with 3 interviewers - 2 ladies and 1 guy. i can only hope for the best right now..i'm really keen to take up with job.. so let's hope God opens this distant door for me.
will be working at nl through the weekend. 7days in nl for this week. -whines- on the brighter side of things, at least i'll finish around 2pm on sunday..so that leaves the rest of the day to be utilised for a probable badminton game.
tomorrow is motorbike lesson 2. gulps. back to the freaking heavy bike!
for today.. i'm going straight home to rest. tomorrow, training resumes. big dream is still langkawi.. and that'll be my driving force for now!
Thursday, November 09, 2006
Tuesday, November 07, 2006
tricia the sick gal
i've been diagnosed with some ailments i wish i needn't have. gout. slight anemia. eczema on my right arm but i think it's clearing up pretty alright.
need to make some changes to my diet but i'm just tired to think about it. no more sardines, mackerel, soya, tofu, tomatoes..argh!! these are food i love! =(
need a front light but i'm procrastinating about running down to rodalink to get it.
latest update, i have gotten new front light. s-sun bidded goodbye after an attempt to revive it by billy. the battery leaked and killed it. sigh. the light served me really well..cheap, bright..just that the outer cover kinda corroded a little causing a sticky irremovable coating that made the light a little unpleasant to hold.
anyway, as i was dilly-dallying on whether should i run to jln kechil to get the lights, some strange notion just kicked me on my butt. the thought kind of went,"u sit here some more, u are not going to go anywhere at the end of the hour." that made me jump off my chair and run out of the office towards bt timah road. took me slightly over 40mins to get there and another 40mins to get back. the overhead 1pm sun was no joke. the heat on the return run was more forgiving.. the clouds gave poor tricia a little shade from the brutal sun.
slacked big time since saturday. an enigmatic fatigue overcame me as i spent the weekend resting from the usual bike and run. the initially-thought-of-as sprain didn't seem to go off, as i pushed through 2 hours of badminton nonetheless. spent the latter half of sat travelling to katong to get my new cycling shoes, as my sidi pair goes into the condemn list. sunday morning was a sleep in.. and then it was out to find a doctor to treat my "sprain". fortunately, from justin's contact, i got to know a doc at jurong east and i headed there swiftly. after over an hour of treatment, which consisted of passing through of electricity via 4 needles stuck onto my ankle and also tapping (pain =S), i could twist n turn my ankle with no pain after which. however, the pain returned the next day during my morning 7km run. sigh.
subsequently, i read up more on my gout condition. what i can do about it..like changing diet..losing weight..drinking more water.. avoiding high purine food..etc. somehow knowing i've got gout didn't come totally a shock as i've got a history of high uric acid since 2004 and i've been warned of the possibility of contracting gout..however i didn't take it too much to heart and continued to intake alot of soya (i don't like milk..so i'm often drinking soya)..and tofu..and also sardines. maybe it's my body giving me a red light that i'm really too off balance in my way of diet. seriously would have to give my diet some thought and make sure i recover well from gout.
tomorrow i'll be bringing my dad down to the same chinese doctor for treatment of his heel. before that it'll be napfa test. (read: CHAM lor...) then after doc's i'll be running down to bbdc for driving lessons.. run to pool and finish the night off with lifesaving.
thursday i'll start my first riding practical. woohoo..pink vespaaaaa!..here i come! found out from weiliang that a new vespa would cost around 12k..gulps. nvm bout the cost for now, i'll just concentrate on getting my license first.
friday night will be departing for powerman. i'll be taking anti-inflam to keep going on. tricia will pull through this. =)
need to make some changes to my diet but i'm just tired to think about it. no more sardines, mackerel, soya, tofu, tomatoes..argh!! these are food i love! =(
need a front light but i'm procrastinating about running down to rodalink to get it.
latest update, i have gotten new front light. s-sun bidded goodbye after an attempt to revive it by billy. the battery leaked and killed it. sigh. the light served me really well..cheap, bright..just that the outer cover kinda corroded a little causing a sticky irremovable coating that made the light a little unpleasant to hold.
anyway, as i was dilly-dallying on whether should i run to jln kechil to get the lights, some strange notion just kicked me on my butt. the thought kind of went,"u sit here some more, u are not going to go anywhere at the end of the hour." that made me jump off my chair and run out of the office towards bt timah road. took me slightly over 40mins to get there and another 40mins to get back. the overhead 1pm sun was no joke. the heat on the return run was more forgiving.. the clouds gave poor tricia a little shade from the brutal sun.
slacked big time since saturday. an enigmatic fatigue overcame me as i spent the weekend resting from the usual bike and run. the initially-thought-of-as sprain didn't seem to go off, as i pushed through 2 hours of badminton nonetheless. spent the latter half of sat travelling to katong to get my new cycling shoes, as my sidi pair goes into the condemn list. sunday morning was a sleep in.. and then it was out to find a doctor to treat my "sprain". fortunately, from justin's contact, i got to know a doc at jurong east and i headed there swiftly. after over an hour of treatment, which consisted of passing through of electricity via 4 needles stuck onto my ankle and also tapping (pain =S), i could twist n turn my ankle with no pain after which. however, the pain returned the next day during my morning 7km run. sigh.
subsequently, i read up more on my gout condition. what i can do about it..like changing diet..losing weight..drinking more water.. avoiding high purine food..etc. somehow knowing i've got gout didn't come totally a shock as i've got a history of high uric acid since 2004 and i've been warned of the possibility of contracting gout..however i didn't take it too much to heart and continued to intake alot of soya (i don't like milk..so i'm often drinking soya)..and tofu..and also sardines. maybe it's my body giving me a red light that i'm really too off balance in my way of diet. seriously would have to give my diet some thought and make sure i recover well from gout.
tomorrow i'll be bringing my dad down to the same chinese doctor for treatment of his heel. before that it'll be napfa test. (read: CHAM lor...) then after doc's i'll be running down to bbdc for driving lessons.. run to pool and finish the night off with lifesaving.
thursday i'll start my first riding practical. woohoo..pink vespaaaaa!..here i come! found out from weiliang that a new vespa would cost around 12k..gulps. nvm bout the cost for now, i'll just concentrate on getting my license first.
friday night will be departing for powerman. i'll be taking anti-inflam to keep going on. tricia will pull through this. =)
Wednesday, November 01, 2006
green eye tricia
green eye monster consumed me yesterday as christin and i chatted over msn. envy gnawed my esteem to bits.
yes, i wish i had a cpa to boast about. i wish i could afford a car.
it's a trade off i guess. we get some, we don't get some.
pain on ankle was further aggravated after yesterday's game. i hope i'll pull through next week's napfa and powerman.
contemplating over the vegetable diet bernard mentioned. i simply lack that huge gunk of determination to throw my beloved bread out of the window and embrace the greens. moreover, my mum religiously buys the loaf each day and set it on the table for us to feast on. how am i to push that away and be oblivious to its presence?! ok..unless i wear a blind fold at home. =
just bought a pack of bread to eat..but somehow i suddenly lost my appettite as i look at it. imagine looking at all the food and the calories imprinted on them. woohoo!
sigh. am i turning paranoid?
yes, i wish i had a cpa to boast about. i wish i could afford a car.
it's a trade off i guess. we get some, we don't get some.
pain on ankle was further aggravated after yesterday's game. i hope i'll pull through next week's napfa and powerman.
contemplating over the vegetable diet bernard mentioned. i simply lack that huge gunk of determination to throw my beloved bread out of the window and embrace the greens. moreover, my mum religiously buys the loaf each day and set it on the table for us to feast on. how am i to push that away and be oblivious to its presence?! ok..unless i wear a blind fold at home. =
just bought a pack of bread to eat..but somehow i suddenly lost my appettite as i look at it. imagine looking at all the food and the calories imprinted on them. woohoo!
sigh. am i turning paranoid?
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