just do it tricia

have intended to sleep early tonight but it's coming to 10pm and i'm still online. chatted with grace for a while..now it seems like a floodgate of thoughts is released..

maybe i'm being a difficult friend..but i think i no longer feel chum that close to me these days. he used to be a phone call away, a sms away..a msn chat window away..nowadays? i'm not too sure. perhaps it's me. maybe he's in the blind spot which i am unable to locate on my mirrors.

maybe he's right. i might just find more empathy from super boy and other friends. from my perspective, he's saying he's washing his hands off me. =( that's sad. but it's ok. i know friends do move on. thanks for being a friend to me for the past year. appreciate it much.

you'll still be the first to help me move a mtb from sg to senai airport on public transport..and then kept me company at senai airport on hard plastic chairs till i was ready to board the flight at 7am. and then u helped me move the bike from senai back to sg when i returned..again on public transport.

sorry i haven't done much for u in return.

-disjunction-

i vowed on saturday night that i will never ask my bro & sis in law for another favour. he has also drew lines clear too. sad, how family now becomes strangers i'm not even sure i can say i've knew them for 2.5 decades.

mum will always be the only one kin i've truly got. the only one kin i will treasure and love.

-disjunct 2-

ang ku kuey will be here soon!! this is sooooo exciting.. finally super boy and i will no longer have to be at the mercy of other's "comfort level" nor "see my schedule"...we'll have more liberty to move around as we please.. =)

-disjunct 3-

i'm 5kgs away from ideal. the rift is getting larger and larger. i need some discipline!!!!!

maybe you're right. i'm distracted. i lack that kind of focus and drive i used to have.

stop thinking. stop planning. just do it. do it. do it do it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!