lean princess, one day

Waking up on a Monday morning is one of the toughest things to do in life. The first thought that comes to mind is, “what? It’s Monday already? Awwww man!”

I had an eventful weekend, spent with my dearie and mummy. Mummy signed me up for a makeover on Saturday and we then mad-rushed to Esplanade for the Chinese orchestra performance. The makeover made me look at myself in the mirror and feel pretty; I wished I looked like that everyday. However, I do recognize it isn’t necessary for me to doll up to that extent on a daily basis. Nevertheless, the Japanese makeup artist(Hirai) and nerdy photographer made me look and feel like a star for a day.

The performance was not too bad, considering all 3 of us did not fall asleep nor decide to let hunger drive us out of the concert hall early during the performance. It had been quite a while since I last attended a performance with my mummy and definitely a first arty-farty event dearie and I are attending together as well.

Raves about the makeover: I got to pick the colour I want and I chose PINK! The make up artist was saying it’s really KAWAII NE! laughs! He did the make up so naturally yet so sweet; I simply loved it. The lady who did the hair made my hair “fly”. Though she looked like she was having fun making a mess out of my hair, the mess does look really stylish. The photo shot came out pretty nice..and I just feel pampered and a little more confident of myself. I secretly wished I was much slimmer; I would probably have worn a sexy tube top and flaunted my slim arms and back. But knowing I’m not of that physique, I hid my tires and flab in the big black shirt bought at ebase during a sale 2 years ago.

Deep within me I really yearn to be slimmer and of course the ultimate goal of being LEAN.. but it feels like a insurmountable endeavour. And the worse thing for me these days is finding the motivation to do something about it hard. I do need a push-off to get my engine started to do something.

I shared with dearie that having lost nearly 4kgs on medication and training made me feel fabulous. I loved to see my arms slim and my face sharpen. Overall, I still managed to keep 1-2kgs of what I lost off thus far but i’m often so tempted to start medication again so that I can regain what I once had. Training is just one component to weight loss; diet still plays a big part. I miss being 46kgs. I was so so so close to hitting my target of 45kgs! The lowest I’ve been so far is 43kgs and that was surviving on 1 scone and water everyday. It wasn’t exactly the most pleasant thing to do..and probably only do-able for students on holiday with nothing better to do. (I did this crazy diet during my holidays after A levels)

It’s ok. My chance starts again today. Everyday I’m given a chance to try being lean. It’s a life long pursue. Keep trying, keep going. One day I will succeed to become a lean princess. One day.

p.s: dearie is going to say he’s tired of listening to me say the same o’things every day. But I really can’t help it coz this is something rooted in me. = (