am i falling sick soon?

i've been amazingly tired this week. i woke up this morning feeling my body isn't mine.

been having weird bizarre dreams too. i dreamt i walked to my primary school via sophia road. along way, there was a guy who started playing the piano.. i peered through the window and just saw this man there playing the piano like music lived within him. not wanting to be discovered, i walked on to my primary school only to find it locked (obviously, it was at night then).. and i made a turn back.. with the intention to pass by that house once again.

somehow that reminded me how long i haven't touched my piano since i gave up on the dip.

i'm in a similar situation now. thats sense of "even if i tried, would i have made it feeling".

the conversation with cw yesterday left me with alot of afterthoughts. where has tricia's motivation gone to? is she headed for the wrong direction with all the wrong reasons? is imca a dream that's drifting further and further away beyond my grasp?

alot of questions, i asked. alot of answers, i wish i found.

i said i just want to keep moving. i am scared to stop because i don't know where the tide would wash me to.

tricia needs an imaginary friend who would tug her out of bed in the morning. she needs an imaginery friend who would bike and run with her each morning. doing it alone can be uber boring, especially so now that her flashdrive mp3 player has broken down. why isn't anyone giving her one of those portable radio freebies? these days i'm often getting calculator freebies. gee. i want a radio! i want a radio!!

i went to nap in between typing this blog..and guess what..i woke up with sore eyes.. my shoulders hurt. sigh.

am i falling sick soon?