pride lesson

i had a heated arguement with my mum just now. i asked her if it was ok if i painted my room today and she gave an insistent no. even as i tried to cajole her into letting me to, her reply still stood firm. "no, 1-2 days more".

i was infuriated by that and i demanded to do it today.

"today! i want to do it today!"

slam. my mum slammed my phone.

that left my heart, mind and spirit in turmoil. should i just stand by what i want to do and go ahead with it? or should i let down my pride, i pick another day?

i wrestled with my stubborness until i gave in and told the Lord, "Father, teach me what to do."

immediately, i felt a sense of peace that calmed my spiritman. and i heard words resounding in my heart like it was speaking right next to my ear.

"there is definitely another day you can do it."

"is it so hard to let your pride down?"

"if you can teach your youths submission, why aren't you doing it yourself? if you can't be teacheable, how can you teach your youths?"

"there is a win win situation. only if you choose it."

i struggled. yes, i really struggled. tricia is a fighter, but she is letting her pride down again. she is allowing the Lord to mould my pride all over again.

i told God.

"Yes, there are other days i can do it. But, wed n fri evenings i want to go down to the pool to observe lifesaving...u know.. (i tried to give myself reasons to substantiate my point. yet for a moment i stopped. and it felt all nullified)"

"yes, it is hard to let down my pride. but Lord, teach me how i can do it."

"i want to be teacheable. teach me so i can teach my youths."

"yes, i want to choose a win win situation. i want my mum to be happy. she means too much to me."

then eph6:1 came to mind.

"Children, obey your parents in the Lord, for this is right."

i picked up the phone wanting to call my mum, but only to put it down again.

struggles again.

i already know the answer. i will do it on wed. i can wait.

picked up the phone and called my mum.

"mummy, can i do it on wednesday?"

"wednesday? yea..i can consider that."

"wednesday la. ok?"

"yea. ok. meantime you don't move around so much. tomorrow we're going to the hospital. remember that. eat your lunch ya?"

"thanks, mummy."

i feel so happy in my spirit, i can't describe it. i feel so happy, so loved and so relieved.

it feels i passed a test God put me through. i learnt another valuable lesson. i know i have taken another step to maturity.

yes, there can always be a win win situation, only if we choose it.