lonely 21km

totally jaded.

ahm report.
ahm was a lonesome ahm.
apparently after oversleeping.. i was way too late to join in the ahm which was suppose to be flagged off at 530am. though i have signed up for the 10km as rl was paying for it, my plan was still to run 20km down to esplanade and do the ahm. however, this sleepy head here had done it AGAIN.

oversleep. oversleep. oversleep.

after work at rl on sat, i was dead beat. went to bed feeling a little "out of reach". a head full of doubts on whether i would be able to survive a full marathon ordeal laid ahead of me. with that heavy heart, i laid my heavy head to sleep.

i was rudely awoken by a jolt, realising i must have slept way beyond the 3hrs i was given. oh shit! 430am?!?!? holly molly! so there i went..messaging chum n billy, this silly girl had done it YET AGAIN. while in the midst of exchanging sms and phonecalls, disappointment with myself picked my head and rammed it against the wall. i actually teared coz here i was sitting there watching time go past and knowing i was falling short of what i had planned.

somewhere in me, i needed someone to just tell me, hey..just go on. msging iggy, my coach who believes so much in me, i then took out a pen and my notebook and scribbled randomly the time i have had left and what i could accomplish out of it.

upon doing so, i could tell i have time to run down from cck to esplanade and still make it for the 10km run. so it was a lonely 20km down..bought a bottle of h20 and brisk walked down to the start point. met johnny along the way and he almost wanted to join me for the 10km run (he just finished 21km).. but he decided to go home to sleep anyway. billy joined me for the 10km run (and he too did 21km already) ..

the 10km was the most horrrendous one i have ever ever ever done. 97% of the crowd were WALKING and because of that they jammed up the lanes causing the ones who want to run unable to move.. runners just had to walk with the rest of the walkers. billy and i were so disgustingly pissed! rain started to fall when we hit suntec which was about the 5km mark. the water barricades pushed everyone into a long bottle neck.. it was really frustrating walking in the rain and getting wet. on final resort, billy, chongyap and i climbed over the barricades and ran down by the side all the way to suntec for shelter.

anyway, cutting the long story short, tricia only managed 25km out of the 42km intended. oh well..

i have put myself on another endeavour for the 4-6pecs challenge. i have no idea where am i going to get those abs..but i will start doing the ab exercises i've found on the net. need some change to my diet too..sigh. let's see how this works out.. maybe i should just pull out. i'm not a worthy opponent against iggy and wicky.

bday surprise for teck heng turned out really good. i'll post the photos up soon. his friends - zhen jie and wei lun made it really fun. i see alot of potential in these youths around me.. i do hope they'll channel their talents to the things worth their effort, i'm sure they'll go far.

toolbox is cancelled. i think it's a good thing coz time is really to hard pressed for us to do a good job.

i am dying to get better. i want to get faster.. told iggy i will try my best if he can teach me how to. when someone believes in tricia, it gives her alot of strength. just like aman believing tricia can race sac, she went all the way out and did it. even when it meant mtbiking every after noon.. even when she fell umpteen times, she could still pick herself up and go on. i was able to complete sac because aman believed in me.

iggy believes in me too. i do hope i can get myself out of lane 1. i want to get faster. i want to get better. and it'll all start from my mind. =)