silver lining around every dark cloud

eventful weekend which i think i did mediocre for the 2 races which took place.

singapore bi: i think according to the clock i did a 1:51 thereabouts. i thought i did the 10km at a miserably slow speed.. but i kept telling myself i don't want to cheong and leave myself all depleted, jeopardizing the longer run next day. so i just kept to my small little strides at a slow pace. even bernard who was there supporting, asked," why so slow?"

kl marathon: our hotel was situated in the heart of chinatown. got my hands on a few nice bags and card holder. i was trying my best to do a sub-5 but the terrain was comparatively tougher than scsm. kl's route is full of hills..and the last 10km brought us through a long uphill which was part of the 30km pacesetters route. the only thing i could tell myself to do is to keep running and NOT STOP. came in at the time of 5:01 which is 14mins slower than scsm. felt the fatigue kick in much much earlier around the 8km mark, compared to the 15km mark for scsm. water was plentiful with 100plus and water stations.. starting early at 430am was a bonus as well. route was well thought out..at least we didn't have to run to and fro the same place..it was around the outskirts of kl city and then into the heart of the city..back around then back in.. my 1st time doing this route..and next year when i'm back, i promise to be more prepared for it. and of course, doing the bi the day before and then a marathon was a bad idea..haha..no more of that next year! =P

and yes.. MOS SAVED THE DAY!! without MOS, i couldn't have kept running. after 20km mark, it was MOS music that kept my legs going. i just let the pounding of the music fill me entirely..and i told myself i just want to keep moving my legs to the music. i promise this time i'll get myself MOS CDs..to think the 1st ones i ripped were from aaron.. MOS is TRICIA's SOLUTION To MARATHON AGONY!

work is now of fuzzy grey and it's doesn't seem to be making much sense to me. there are things i know i must do and those are in clear light..however, those which are expected of me..and those others perceive of me, that's in the fuzz.

like christin said," if i gives me so much inner conflict, then seriously consider about it." yes, it is causing much inner conflict. and yes, i am seriously considering how helpful it is to me.

meanwhile, in all haziness of things, my consolation is knowing God, superboy and christin will always be by me. mummy is there too! silver lining around every dark cloud i guess. so, tricia, smile. =)