i almost lost sight

I almost lost sight of myself today.

I have to chant and drill the following into my head so that I don’t become emotional with the work situation.

1. STUDIES is the TOP priority for tricia (“burn it into my head”, quote Ms Harris, my lecturer for accounting module)

2. This job gives me time to study and also tutor.

3. Time lost not studying can never be retrieved. Once I finish this module or term, I won’t be able to redo it again. experience at work I can still slowly sought out once I finish my studies.

4. I am earning enough to finance my studies and save a bit. Dearie is paying for all the household expenses now, and he wants me to save my money for studies. That’s why I’m taking up 1 more tuition assignment so that I can afford to shoulder the burden of household expenses too.

5. I need the bonus to finance my 3^rd term studies.

6. A good job must slowly be sought out. Don’t leave on impulse. I must make sure my next job is one that will allow me to develop and stay for a long while.

7. Best time to find job is after Dec pay-out. So no rush and don’t worry about the non-availability of jobs now. It’ll come, just not so soon.

8. Take the opportunity to learn, study and pick up things useful for my career.(not learning data entry as suggested by my colleague) more like doing some courses etc.

Talk about course, i am still drawn towards the Advanced Taxation course by tax academy. But it’s open only for tax professionals, so I’m no where near that. I’m a professional in GST filing. How’s that? =P

I was feeling way in the pits..but I’m slowly drawing myself out of it. Knowing my priorities and having them “burnt” into me is important. I don’t want to forget where my goal is because now I don’t see any light in the tunnel, but I am confident I will reach the end of it in 1.5years time.