treading with fear

Expectations at work have been scaling. More is required. More work is given. Responsibilities have increased significantly too. I feel somewhat lost because I don’t know where to start.

Help to check and balance the operations? Taking control? Am I in a position to do so? I am but a mere accountant. I am probably just that little dwarf behind the FC. Probably the director meant the fc should be taking more charge. I am merely an assistant. But from the kind of workload she already has, her plate is nearly full. I just feel inadequate to execute those tasks that were discussed in the quarter review yesterday.

I feel somewhat overwhelmed and fearful. Dearie tells me to take one task at a time. Each task feels big. It’s like hugging a big tree whose trunk I can’t wrap my arms fully over.

Big tasks present big opportunities. However, are these big hats too big for my head?

I cast a lot of doubts on myself. I still can’t frame myself beyond the accountant’s scope. I have barely scaled the hill and I am told I have to climb a mountain. Yet I know well, if I took the challenge and made a good climb, I might reach the summit of the mountain..and what lies ahead could be better than what I have bargained for.

Yet for now, I am still struggling with myself. How do I keep up? I am fearful of taking a wrong step and end up in the deep end of the pool.