turtle pace

timing for my 2km isn't improving. i am unable to achieve the timing set. feeling much like a tortoise now. maybe dearie is right, i can do longer distances like half and full marathons. however, when it comes to sprints which requires bursts of energy, i somehow just do not have the fast twitch muscles to do well.

yet, i feel sore. because i want to do better and i don't want to give up without a fight. the relay is in another 1.5wks' time; i have no idea where can i find wings to help me shave 10secs off my current timing. will red bull help?

much thoughts went through my mind during the long management meeting that spanned over hours. one director commented that there is no culture within the company to seek out training and development. people do not find a need to upgrade themselves.

i ran that thought upon myself. when i first embarked on my masters some while ago, i was hungry for growth. i wanted to catch up with my peers and studying was the only option i had that could perhaps aid my chase. i thought about how obtaining the masters could help open more doors, give me more options and leverage my growth.

since graduating, have i seen all that come to past?

i hate to answer this, but somehow not really.

of course there are other valuable knowledge which i have gained from my course of study. but all that may not have been translated into something quantifiable.

i did find a job pretty quickly. i am earning a little more than before. but i am ambitious for more. what do i need to move on to the next level? will i be able to 'earn' my school fees back?

this turtle here really has to pick up her pace. i am not giving up without a fight!