6pm rules!

i feel lousy today. can't explain the feeling..but it's a really intense extreme unhappiness within me which has just burst open like a pandora's box.

3.5mths more and i'm done. what's next? where to go next? i seriously do not know either.

i hate the things going around me which i am not in control of.

what can i control? someone tell me!

i wish i could go on the tour of hope. perhaps the person in need of hope is me. 1 month long of biking from singapore to thailand. sounds absolutely wonderful for me.

if i had the money/savings now, i would really love to take a break from work, fly off to US and join a training camp..go trekking.. backpacking..

however, back to reality.. dreams remain merely dreams..

maybe i should join the army bmt for 2 months. that might actually serve as a break for me..

my sanity is down the gutter now. feels like i've been caught in a downpour. that same down and out feeling.

there's swim training i cannot miss tonight. sigh. how?

finished reading synopses for the entire devil beside me series. i'm up to episode 5 now. can't wait to finish the entire show. it's simply sooooooo lovey dovey!!!

this coming sunday i'll be leaving for sabah along with ivy, billy, jameson and jill. can't wait to get out of the everyday work routine for some altitude training.

morning brick training is a struggle. by the time i get home from swim/ls training it's almost 10pm.. by the time i get to bed, almost midnight. how to wake up the next morning without feeling tired to do bricks? monday is a struggle. tues is worse..coz shifu's training is tough (like usual)

i'm back from my noon jog n stairs. usual 4km run..and 3 x 20 stairs..came back and joined ivy for another 3 x 12 stairs.

coming back from the workout, i felt much better. ready to take on swim later. iggy told me to remember to just reach DEEP into the water and pull. will do just that later. never mind if shifu is still going to say i'm slow.

i want to start enforcing my 6pm rule today. no more eating after 6pm. if i adhere to it, i'll reward myself with nice baked beans for bfast!!

here we go...6pm rulez!!!