sweet fetish

As we were conversing in the car during the weekend, mr guava brought into perspective the likelihood of getting a new laptop if my studies require. I’ll definitely be working a lot more on the laptop and when I have to present my research paper, I must have my own laptop to do so. I can’t possibly borrow ct’s laptop (she has to work too) and I’m currently using a desktop in the office.

However, as I tussle with the vanity, I know my dell laptop is working well (erm,notwithstanding the occasional virus alert pop-up) and the only thing I often whine about is its size and weight. Apart from that, I really haven’t got much to complain about it. It’s slightly over 3 years old (can’t remember exactly how old but I got it during NL time which was I think should be late 04- early 05 period). I had no idea what kind to get and what to look out for, hence I simply yi-ni-mi-ni-ma-ni-mo one off the dell brochure I receive every now and then kiap-ed in between my daily Straits Times.

It’s just a vanity thing I concur with the devilish side of me and the sony cr 35 really gets my eyes popping out large O_o pinkkkk! Irresistible pink! It’s really sweet. Sweet. Sweet!!

Sweetness comes with a whopping price tag of $1,999!! O_O sigh. If I hadn’t got to pay the hefty amount for the subscription, I would have loved to bag this baby home.

Hence after rationalizing that I would probably need the money for travel, I’m somehow going to let go of the idea.= (

Or perhaps, I might just earn enough from my part time job to get myself a decent laptop that isn’t so expensive.

Gosh. See la. That’s how money makes the world go round. No money, can only just stand outside the shop and drool. Can see, can feel, but cannot bring home and own it.

I feel like the hungry kid starving for days, pasting her face on the bakery, staring and drooling hungrily at the freshly baked bread. Reaching into my pocket, I only find $0.50, not even enough to buy a bun these days. Feeling disheartened, I can only swallow hard and walk away miserably. $0.50 enough to buy some sweets from the mama shop. Unwrapping the hacks lemon sweet, I slowly place it on my tongue. Taking my time to savour its sweetness and letting that sweetness numb the disappointment that this is all I can afford. Indeed, money does make the world go round, doesn’t it?