Like a bird with a broken wing, that’s how tricia feels whenever her injury recurs. It often leaves me limping and sucked into a vortex of frustration. It’s probably one of the lowest points in my training life right now. Seems like I’ve been reverted back to the days when I couldn’t run properly after the bike accident. I struggled to finish 10km as I slowed down to prevent the pain from coming in too soon. It feels lousy coming in like a granny lumbering.
Office politics is getting complex; I suddenly don’t know who to trust. Perhaps there is no one to trust at all. Humans playing the game of office politics would fend for no one but them selves. I’m still falling prey of being too forth right. I must protect myself and stay on the neutral base. Zip up my mouth and just roll along. My plan is to stay till the bonus pay-out or if I can, till I hit the 2 years mark. I’m withering away here but i’m still going to persist and hang on. in the worse situation at Carrefour, I managed to stay there for 7months. It’s just a mere 6 months to bonus and 10months to another full year. Gee, thought of it does feel a little far to behold at the moment.
In the meantime, I am putting my attention on other things so that it eases the sore at work.
Should I jump onto the wagon of learning make up? the rationale behind wanting to do so is to equip myself with some skills to do makeup for myself and also for my big day. However, knowing I’m never a person good with grooming, I am a little hesitant to spend the few Ks on it.
On a broader perspective, this can become a sideline for additional income too. That’s only if I get very good at it and the door would open for me to start a client base. I’m not too sure how that’ll run along because to become really good at it will require extra effort for someone like myself. When talent is not inherent, it’ll fall back to hard work. just how much effort am I going to put into it? what do I see at the end of the line? Would it be worth the effort, time and money?
The end point is inconclusive; fuzzy to sight. It’s a wild stab in the dark for something I cannot even see.
Moreover, if the amount would jump backwards by 1 decimal point, then I probably won’t fear jumping onto the wagon. Even if it doesn’t turn out into a sideline path, at least I’ll acquire skills that’ll benefit me in the long run.
But because the course is expensive, the equipment required is expensive and things related to it don’t always come cheap, hence I am thinking it through and through.
At such rate of procrastination, I’ll end up not doing it after all.
Decisions decisions decisions..why can’t we have a magic crystal ball that gives glimpses into the future?
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