i am sad

I really hate the feeling at work. I hate feeling I am wasting every day of my life here just to warm the chair. I hate the control freak supervisor I’ve got. I hate having nothing to do and I don’t know what I can do about it.

I really dread coming to work, apart from the time I can use to study. I can’t stop that feeling despite how I try to console myself that this is perhaps the only job that’ll pay me to study.

But can you imagine coming to work and whatever work that used to be yours is grabbed away from control freaks? Even work my boss delegates to me specifically, she has to jut her head in and then ask me to send all the hard work to her so that she can forward it out and claim credit. i am only called an executive by name, in fact I am doing nothing. I hate it. I really hate that feeling.

I am so tempted to thrown in my resignation letter and leave, honestly. i want to get out of this place because I feel I really want to learn more things instead of just rolling around this place like a pig waiting to be slain.

Sad thing is I can’t say all that during my interview. I wish I could have honestly expressed all that during my last interview..but I can’t. I can’t say I’ve got a bitchy supervisor. I can’t say I am idling doing nothing. I feel so caught at times. Feeling all emotional now, I really feel like crying whenever I see how pathetic I am fast becoming at work. =(