having enough

Am I trying to make life difficult for myself I pondered? I do have cash spare on hand, just that I am reluctant to spend them. In view of the fees I have to fork out, I trembled a little. The need to be thrifty is real – to ensure I have enough to meet the fees. It has wiped out a lot of what I have and whenever I try to rebuild what I paid out, I find my efforts washed out by yet another term of fees to pay. Really want this to end soon.

It’s an investment I tell myself, yet its intangibility brings uncertainty.

There is little I want of these days because the thought of depleting funds stops me from wasting it on unnecessary things.

It is my hope to get out of this phase in life. I want to be financially strong and have the capability to be a little more generous. I want to add more zero-es to the current amount of savings I have. I want to stop worrying about not having enough for rainy days.