run tricia run!

Thursday, another day to Friday. So close to the weekend again.

Planned to do 6 sets of 800m sprints but we managed only 4 sets. Nevertheless, going out 100% for those 4 sets was a good feeling. I set for myself a personal best of 1:56 per 400m lap. It’s been a long time since I last did speedwork.. during my peak, I clocked 12mins for 2.4km. But well, that was eons ago.

I hope to shave off a good 5mins from my marathon pb in the standchart marathon at year end. I hope with all the speed training, it’ll translate to some results. 4:42, that’s the goal.

MR25 ultra.. goal is 5 laps of 10.5km. aim is 6 laps. If I do so, dearie got to buy me a new cw-x sports bra! Hahaa!

Depend on no one but ourselves. It doesn’t seem that my colleague is going to help us in any way with our running, so we must do it on our own. Not everyone is like Johnny and Bimo who would unconditionally help us. I’m not pinning much hope on my colleague. Without him, dearie and I would still strive to do well in the coming races. 3 more planned out for this year – SAFRA Avventura (next Sunday), Standchart Marathon, MR25 Ultra.

Next year we are pending the IM plan for now, though we are raging to go. It’s a 8 months commitment and loads of discipline is required. Money vs dreams, it’s such a hard choice to make. Taking up the IM has its opportunity costs involved. I may have to give up rl because weekends are the best times to do mileage training.. if we are going to train in desaru, it has to be over the weekend as well.

No more mba dream in line, maybe im dream is the next one to pursue!

A random rant: whatever is given is bonus and we shouldn’t expect too much. Scrooges are always afraid of others milking of them. Too bad that he didn’t keep his word. Saying this today and changing it to another the next day only shows how much can we depend on what he promises. Or maybe he would rebut that he never promised anything, so perhaps that means we are not suppose to fully trust on your words as well. If I wanted to stick to pride, I would just turn away and not take the offer. However, since it’s given I’ll just take and leave my rants to my blog and with my dearie. If that’s all is on the table, I’ll sweep it all off, walk away and shrug my shoulders in dismay.

away from the beach

in the last 30mins of work time before i break for the weekend, i decided to change the layout to something minimalistic. the beach babe layout is just so not-me.

as i wrecked my brains on what possible means i can have to do some business online, i suddenly remember how my blog has come to a standstill.

i clicked the link to a popular local blogger and the photos on them told a story of their own. i read another friend's blog and within those lines, his own story too.

i feel cold. my fingers tremble. and my stomach is rumbling. reading someone's life distracts me from all that agony.

birthday, blades & bike

Had an eventful weekend. It was quite a rush back to Segamat on Friday night but it was a trip which was worth every minute of traveling for. Dearie’s family bought a cake and celebrated my birthday with me. It was a nice blueberry chessecake with Oreo base. Yummy!

Listening to dearie’s dad share his opinion on the mba made a lot of sense to me and it made me evaluate and consider areas I did not perceive of. One question he posed struck me, “Are you doing the mba because there’s a need to, or is it just a paper chase?”

True enough, my honest answer is the latter. It’s not easy to make me change my mind once I decide on something.. I’m so close to registering for the course, but his dad made so much sense I could not just blindly believe I am still making a right decision for myself.

Hence, mba plans will adjourn till further notice. Meantime it’s time to gather experience and learn at my job.

Ace adventure was a mix of fun and frustration. Nonetheless, racing with dearie made all the difference. He was the one to push me on when I thought the race was meaningless after tony dropped out. I couldn’t handle the double line ascending which made things worse, but he told me we must still finish the race. In light of other things, I think it was a good race and we made good pace. With further training and more bike sessions, let’s hope we can do better in future races.

Birthday’s over and I’m officially 26. wishes I gathered this year.

dearie
mummy
kai
bimo
Vincent (financial planner)
janson
weiliang
daddy
aiping
guobin
christin
Irene (secretary)
Daniel (msn)
latios (1 of my youth I suddenly forgot his name)
aman

hehe..i realize as years go by, wishes get fewer. People who remember always remember. =)

no 4D win for me but the ang pao I gotten from my dad and bro is sufficient to buy the roller blades. I decided not to buy them after all, will be getting a pair of running shoes instead as I’m totally soaked my phoenix in mud and sea water. I think I run more than I blade, hence shoes over blades.

My mtb is in dire state. I discovered a deep gash on the chain stay which I’ve got no idea when it appeared from. I need to get the shifting fixed as it got jammed several times before and during race.. I couldn’t change it to granny so I had to crank up the slopes on 2-1. It’s crazy! It’s visible that the overall condition of the bike is bad and Patrick suggested I should try to sell the current frame off, salvage whatever parts salvage-able and then buy a frame that fits. Of course that’s ideal but I doubt the frame will be worth anything at this point in time, looking at the condition of it. I can’t bear to spend on a new bike though I know if I want to race on, I need a relatively decent one. My heart’s skewed towards a titanium bike for fuss free maintenance but that comes with a price tag of around 1.5k. The entire set up would probably cost 2-3k. I’m really not willing to spend that kind of money now. Alternatively I love the kinesis frames..but it’s a lot to pay for alu frames. I’ll be crying if I get the nice paint work all scratched up.

Second hand frames that fit my size are very hard to come by. 14” would fit me best but it’s once in a blue moon to find someone sell a mtb that size. That’s also the reason why I ended up with a 15.5” which is too big for good control.

Tricia tricia..u want something good that doesn’t cost you much? Dream on!

OOOoooooOOo..this is the K2 Velocity 4.0 (W)

Birthday Wish 2007

Tomorrow is my birthday.

So far I’ve gotten 2 bday presents: tri suit and crocs from dearie. Vacuum cleaner from mummy. Bro’s giving me a red packet. Dad wants to get me something but I declined. He should save the money up.

I was so near to getting the blades I’ve wanted to get for a long while. Dearie spotted a nice carpark top deck which will be ideal for me to blade around. My eyes sparkled with a tinge of hope when that idea came. I’ve been wanting to get a pair of blades for a long while but didn’t do so coz I found there’s very few places in Singapore to blade and it’s not cheap purchasing and maintaining when (esp when I have 3 bikes to take care of already).

I tried on a pair of K2 velocity 4.0 and it felt really really really nice! I was so close to getting them but I decided not to at the end of it. I asked my mum if I was wasting money and my mum’s reply knocked the decision into me, “ play can anytime play. Don’t waste such money la.” I know dearie had that.. “if u want can get but I’m not supportive of it” look which also made me hesitate.

Then I thought of the studies I want to embark on. Dearie might be right after all, I may not have time to blade once I start studying.

Moreover, I am seriously cash strapped. I shouldn’t waste the money like that. Every penny I have I would like to channel it to my studies.

As I sat in the bus on my way to work today, I was still aching a little over the blade which I was so close to laying my hands on. Then something silly came in mind..if only I struck lottery, hopefully it’ll be enough to cover for my blades.. though I really haven’t got much luck with 4D and lottery. So far I’ve bought 4D twice and I never won a single cent. Tomorrow is my birthday, I wonder if that’ll bring me luck?

“Ma, help me buy 4D hor.”

“What number you want to buy?”

“Anything la. Tomorrow is my birthday, maybe got luck. Then can buy blades liao.”

“Where got anything one? U want must give me a number.”

“Huh..let me go think about it.”

Dearie gave me a 2627 coz I’m 26 years old and he’s 27. not very innovative huh. I thought I might want to get my colleagues help me pick a number, maybe they can share a little of their luck with me.

I feel like a little kid wanting her toy badly. Haha.

I’m not good with numbers? Anyone has anything good to suggest? If I strike, I’ll treat you coffee la.

Therefore, birthday wish for 2007 is to strike enough 4D to buy a pair of blades. No more wishing to be slim coz I know it doesn’t work =P

it's hard

I’ve been eating plain wholemeal bread for the past 2 days. Plain and I mean ko-song, nothing. There’s an unknown wholesomeness in the bread that I never quite noticed when I had them with spreads.

Taming my taste buds is something I am trying to do. I have a tendency to go for food with strong tastes; it’s a real challenge trying to tone down on it.

Attempts to lose weight continue to seem infertile. I am so tempted to resort to unorthodox means but I know it does me no good. Somehow I never can accept the way I look – flabby arms, bulging tummy, thunder legs.. there’s always something to find flaw in. Oh please let me lose a good 5kgs and I’ll be thankful!

Dearie, tony and I will be racing in the coming ace adventure. We’ve only got 1 goal for this race..and we all know what! Haha. Haven’t done adventure races for a long while..it’s good to get into the action again.

Desaru training isn’t looking too good. I might give it a pass than to go there and merely do it for the sake of doing. I want to go to do it at the best I can, not just go through the motion.

Am I being too hard on myself already? Hmm.

how to build a kingdom

for those friends who lead sedentary lives (work, eat, sleep with no exercise), i thought this quote from mind your health today might make you reconsider taking something up for yourselves.

"Exercise is King. Nutrition is Queen. Put them together and you've got a kingdom." - Jack La Lanne

vrooom vrooooooom!!

i passed, i passed and I PASSED.vroooooooooommmm!!! yayyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!

want to pass my bike test too..slowly pick it up and complete it..like mum says..got to finish off what i started..cannot leave things half way..

life's jam packed..work's jam packed..training will soon be jam packed too.

TGIF

Life has been like the busy mrt that scuttles from station to station. Continuous, rapid and somewhat fulfilling – gets me to my destination.

In all the busy-ness of working 7 days a week, with occasional getaways with superboy for runs and races, I actually find myself half smiling in my sleep.

I find myself doing useful work – reports that tell a tale of how a company has been faring. I’ve got hardly time to type my blog at work, unlike my previous jobs that gave me much more flexibility and leeway. I find my time is used productively, as I can walk out of office feeling satisfied with the tasks I have managed to complete for the day.

Being esteemed for the work I do, I am given an opportunity to prove I can do something worth the mention. Unlike rjc which only saw me qualified to fold brochures and saw little of what my background and education can contribute as well.

In all, I’m thankful for God opening each and every door, for every station has to be linked with a track between them.

And where ever I go, I know I have my loved ones with me – superboy, mummy, christin and other friends who keep me going on.

have a good day

took a long hiatus from blogging as i no longer have the luxury of sneaking in to blogger.com to type a short blog every other day in the office. perhaps it's not a bad thing, for that'll probably mean i'm utilising my time in the office to be engaged in more meaningful work.

work has been a challenge on its own. with deadlines to meet and a whole lot new things to learn..i've got to be constantly on my toes. the downside of work is that my eye sight is deteriorating as i've got to stare at the monitors for long hours a day. astigmatism seems to be crawling right back in again. lazy eyes..does it mean i've got to get my glasses on again. sigh.

driving has been fun so far. there's alot of polish up before the actual tp test itself.. i do certainly hope i clear it once and for all.

training has taken a bad seat in my life for now. working out is more for the sake of keeping fats off than for performance at any race. not many race goals for now..just the simple "completion".

my eyes are going blurry now. need to look away. work is starting soon in 15mins.

i hope u have a good day too.

picking life's pieces

it's good to go to work and be really busy every moment. work has been pretty packed since it embarked all over once again. fresh start, new environment, renewed goals.. life's gradually unfolding its next petal.

exchange rates, financial statements.. i'm back to accounting again. the cycle's coming to its full round. i took a part of my life to go explore..now it's back to pursue whatever i last left off.

i haven't felt such mental fatigue in a while. as i pored through the 3 years' of accounts i'm suppose to regenerate its financial reports.. it drained me mentally. 2nd day at work and things are still going pretty smooth. i want to make this job work out. and i will refuse to give up easily.

my skin has been giving me alot of problems. itching badly. i hope it goes off soon. it's agonising.

haven't been training as much as i hope i can.

time to pick up my driving lessons next week. must arrange for it tomorrow.

picking pieces up.

when things hit the rock bottom, they have to bounce up.

work hit a bottom following the decision to leap for a no-pay leave starting monday. but i'm thankful God opened 2 interviews next tuesday. both at tuas, which i'm ok with. let's hope both will go ok.

the flat hunt collided into the murky end when the sums worked out to be a great hefty bit of cash upfront. we really don't have that much on our hands, but both of us are willing to give all we've got. this decision is a huge one..i was even reduced to tears coz i realized how i've foolishly spent my money on things that won't build my future. i learnt my lesson to always save, save, save.

even as my morale plunged coz i really wish i had more to offer and i wish i had not spent so much time in social work which enriched my life but not my pockets, i told myself there's no point dwelling in the past. as i leaned my head upon his shoulders, i knew i must pick myself up. change that negate feeling into strength that'll propel me to find a job that'll earn me more, build my career..progress..invest and study..for these will be what will develop my life.

yes, i do feel poor when i know i might be emptying all i have into a home. but i know there's no point dwelling on the state, fold my arms and do nothing about it. i must break out of this state, and the only way to do it is to work harder and save more. poor people don't have to always remain poor, if they know how to empower themselves to move out of the vicious cycle.

superboy & fighter.. both with such great spirit..how can we not live up to the names we choose to call ourselves by. i love the word fighter..coz it has the never-say-die attitude in it. this is one life situation that such attitude must arise. my attitude will determine my altitude, motivational speakers often say.

the day was on a roller coaster today. with the up of knowing today's my last day and mr c.a. who seemed quite helpeful to get it to come to past. down when he almost blew his top coz i was trying to clarify that i should only be returning half the net pay not the gross. up again when i gotten a call from one other company in tuas for interview on tues.. up again when i finished my cip data entry. and up again when i gotten an interview with safra. however, it dipped just 1min ago when i received an email that 1 out of the 3 interviews has been cancelled coz the position has been filled up. that's fine. still got 2 to be hopeful of. may God open the right door to the right job.

Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.
Leon J. Suenes

tricia goes around the money which makes the world go round

false alarm this morning.. thought the school cockpit had some silly need for duplicate entries..anyway, i think things have been cleared! it came to light after i saw the report of a student, who wanted some changes done on her report..so with some track-back..it was a relief i needn't run through the entire box of cip records to get them all keyed in again. phew!!!!!

sneaked out at 2pm to the arcade at raffles place to get my eyebrows trimmed. i came back 15mins late. 315 i set foot into the office. prior to that i received 2 mystery calls from a 6416XXXX number which i decided not to pick up as i was in the mrt. it's too similar to my office num 6419 XXXX. gulps. it's totally alright to use my lunch break to run errands..just that knowing i was going to be 15mins late..that brought apprehension in me to pick up the phone. anyway i'm already back in the office now..so pfft.. -dumps it a side-

the whole flat thing drowned my spirit in a pail of water. somehow it led me to think what have i been doing for the past 5 years of work. i hate myself for deviating out to do social work.. i desperately must get back to finance now.. everything is just quantified in monetary terms..and i need the vitamin M badly. =(

as i saw the panes on the mrt doors reflect tricia, i somehow do think i got a nice physique of one who probably can try passing off as a physical trainer. it led me to think if i could make something of it.. but i guess the process required of me is to do my bec and ft courses.

was pondering a little of how to make a catering business work.

whatever can make money, i want to try.

or perhaps i should take up another job at 7-11 coz the clinic job didn't quite work out. =(

indeed..money makes the world go round.

going no-pay

progress of the cip data entry has been very promising. i've cleared almost 80% of the stack and i'm left with only 20% of the ones which are the tougher ones (longer lists of students on each entry). it's heartening to know i'm well on my way to complete this final task given to me. =)

i was totally left out of the isle programme today..which i didn't bother to ask why. on the brighter side, it's not all a bad thing i'm excluded.. at least i won't have to do another camp for thursday and friday.

a few things on my to-do-list as i go on no-pay leave starting next monday

1. interview at tuas
2. hair cut with patrick
3. get my eyebrows trimmed
4. shopping with my mum
5. catch up on sleep/rest
6. continue to send out lots of applications
7. confirm itinerary for hanoi

friday is coming so close, so close!! =)

my days at rjc are numbered!

super hungry this after noon..ate 1 big pao and a chicken sandwich. super full now!

had a really satisfying dinner with superboy and meow yesterday at thomson. we had: fish hor fun. fish in sweet & sour sauce, spicy potato leaves, ha kows, siew mais..yum yum!!

that was what i call a PROPER meal! after the 12 1/2hrs race in selangor..

totally enjoyed the eco-xtreme race...though it did get really trying at the 20km bike up fraser's hill and the 4hrs up and down trek to the 2 summits. the rafting was fun, the mountain biking portion was great!..abseiling down the 60m bridge was the best i've yet done for all my races..and to top that off..tyrolean traverse across the unpicturesque water fall at gunung chilling..beautiful!! nomad never fails to bring to us good races =)

have been sending out lots of resumes for the past 3 weeks. so far only 1 company has responded but i'm finding difficulties to go down for interview as it's almost impossible to take leave from rj side. sigh. i hope my no-pay leave request goes through, that'll release me to be able to go for interviews starting next week.

mum and superboy have been really supportive in my career move back to finance.. even as i decided to take a leap to go on no-pay leave earlier than my last day.

update at 3:22pm. mel came over and told me my no-pay leave has been approved by the vp. she'll help me settle it. it's really such a burden off me as i've been vexed over the whole matter of whether they'll release me that soon. i guess they do find me a waste of their resources and time, might as well boot me away since i asked for it. but it's good..coz i can finally arrange for the interview at tuas. =)

all of rcel is out for recce at ubin except me. i'm pretty contented in the office doing data entry. at least i know i can go off at 6pm sharp and go for my badminton class at 8pm with no qualms. let's just hope given my last day being friday, i'll be spared from the camp this thurs and fri.

my aim is just to finish the whole box of cip records by friday. i think there is no need for me to attempt to jut my head into what the rest of them are doing, just for the sake of knowing what's going on..and in the process, i get myself into more unnecessary work.

wrapping the day soon..finish a few more entries..then it's badminton time! yay!

eco-xtreme

the next race for superboy and i. happening over the good friday long weekend. wish us luck!

the essence of life

i made a mistake. there are 5 more camps to go. 6 for this month alone. from next thurs onwards, it'll be back to back. 3 out of 5 no venue. 2 out of 5 at dairy farm. i'm filled with much negativity towards camps these days. reasons being:

1. i lose having time outside working hours to do my own things. basically 1st day of camp ends at night. and 2nd day of camp ends around 5pm. latest we've gone to is 11pm for 1st day, 730pm for 2nd day. with that kind of load for 4 out of 5 working days, my energy doesn't get replenished at all.

2. my energy is sapped- both mentally and physically. i've got little energy and drive to train much these days. no wonder none others in rcel are into adventure racing nor any form of endurance sports. i guess they are like me- no energy left.

3. efforts don't always go appreciated, nor is all the work always effective. some classes feel they are already bonded and don't need a short 1.5days camp at all. if they themselves don't see a need, then why do it in the first place? i've yet to see a counsellor going to a client and telling him/her..u need counselling, please come to me now.

the entire feeling is like standing on a piece of thin ice floating in the sea. i can't run from it, i can't choose to jump off from it. filled with dread and reluctance i am made to stand on it till i see land which i can land my feet on.

deep in me, i would like to leap off, plunge into the freezing water if i have to..at least i free myself from the no-choice situation. translate that into my present situation, means i would request to leave mid-month instead of month end. but is that possible? i'm really not too sure though.

i read of the rich and beautiful in urban today and i am filled with a bad concoction of envy and jealousy. i'm envious how some can have such a luxurious life with the world circling around them..jealous how they have so much money to possess whatever they desire, splurging 10k just to dress up for a ball..while i don't even have 10k in my posb savings account. these are just the rich, beautiful and lucky ones existing in the world who probably won't know much of what it means to have the banks tax $2 admin charges on your bank account.

all i'm hoping is to get a decent job..get a decent pay..have time to train for races i enjoy.. spend quality time with my loved ones.. smile everyday and know everything will be ok.

so much things these days come with a price tag on them these days..quantified in monetary terms. i actually do want to dress up more.. get a nice hair colour and hairdo..wear pretty frocks.. enjoy spa.. have facials..but those are luxuries not in my means. i can probably just look from afar and rant.. "i don't think those are for me."

in all the bleakness, living simple isn't all that a bad thing. i'm happy with a small flat. happy just huddle around with superboy in front of the tv, eating dinner. happy just working weekends at running lab with interesting colleagues. at the heart of it all, we all just want love. to love and be loved in return. that's the essence of life. =)

greyish days at rjc

i haven't been exactly too happy at work. how strange things just nose-dive into gloom and dust. not even looking forward for yet another meet up tomorrow. what i have to say i've already said. i doubt they'll want me to stay on, neither do i want to do so.

4 more camps up ahead and 3 of them with no venues. overheard a possibility of ending up at ubin. uh-oh..i've got badminton class on one of the camps.. how am i going to get back ashore, go for class then rush back to camp? i sense a impending disapproval of me going for class again. work is work is work is work, and there is NO compromise to that. i hate camps coz it saps my energy and ruins all own life outside working hours. i have things i want to learn and develop in..

map says we get from pt a to pt b via road c, and that's the way we MUST go. no to road d even if it's faster..NO to road e even if it's flatter. road c it is, road c it must be. such inflexibility affects me tremendously because as my mum requested me to take some off time to spend with her, i could only say i can't. reason is because i'm told i must put in all the hours required of the camp..9am to 11pm..9 am to 6/7pm the next day..and for all that there is no privilege of time off or rest. i think i won't want to voice and ask for me too, in case i'm seen as a trouble maker trying to find flexibility in her system which is rigidly structured as such.

another reason for my departure is the salary which i feel is pathetic. moving back to finance which i can better put my qualifications to use than be literally trampled on coz i don't fit into their mould of how a training facilitator should be. moreover, i don't need their sympathy to TAKE ME IN. those words suck. i'm not a wandering stray that needs a shelter over my head. i want to redeem my esteem n walk away with my head held high.

been terribly left out in alot of work related things since i tendered. i'm trying to not let it affect me..because i didn't choose to be left out..i'm just left out coz i'm soon going to leave. so i guess the rest felt there's no need to involve me too much. oh well..

dw constantly reminds me "the thing is..you are leaving soon." that's really a good thought to focus on, when the lights dim so much it's uncomfortable to be in.

interview at queensway turned out pleasantly nice with doctor wang. wondering what'll be the outcome. would i get it?

i don't know where it will eventually lead me to, but i only want to utilise all the time i have in my hands to earn more. there's alot ahead which requires the cash and i'm lacking much in vitamin M. (m for money)

i know i can survive. i am a gal who can work her way thru to survive. having grown up with little, i can live with little.

sometimes i really want to break down and cry..but what would crying help? at the end of it, i would still have to decide where i want to venture to.. i would have to still stand up and continue in the journey.

1 more day to go before i head to kkb for race. no camps. good thing. i'll probably spend tomorrow doing data entry. a whole box full. got to get it going.

working evenings from 630pm to 9pm at rln for the next 2 days. make up a little for the week ends i'll be missing.

will be making some small tokens for a few nice people i've met at rjc. despite all the unhappiness..there r these handful of nice teachers and colleagues i can truly smile at with no qualms. that's some consolation, isn't it?

silver lining around every dark cloud

eventful weekend which i think i did mediocre for the 2 races which took place.

singapore bi: i think according to the clock i did a 1:51 thereabouts. i thought i did the 10km at a miserably slow speed.. but i kept telling myself i don't want to cheong and leave myself all depleted, jeopardizing the longer run next day. so i just kept to my small little strides at a slow pace. even bernard who was there supporting, asked," why so slow?"

kl marathon: our hotel was situated in the heart of chinatown. got my hands on a few nice bags and card holder. i was trying my best to do a sub-5 but the terrain was comparatively tougher than scsm. kl's route is full of hills..and the last 10km brought us through a long uphill which was part of the 30km pacesetters route. the only thing i could tell myself to do is to keep running and NOT STOP. came in at the time of 5:01 which is 14mins slower than scsm. felt the fatigue kick in much much earlier around the 8km mark, compared to the 15km mark for scsm. water was plentiful with 100plus and water stations.. starting early at 430am was a bonus as well. route was well thought out..at least we didn't have to run to and fro the same place..it was around the outskirts of kl city and then into the heart of the city..back around then back in.. my 1st time doing this route..and next year when i'm back, i promise to be more prepared for it. and of course, doing the bi the day before and then a marathon was a bad idea..haha..no more of that next year! =P

and yes.. MOS SAVED THE DAY!! without MOS, i couldn't have kept running. after 20km mark, it was MOS music that kept my legs going. i just let the pounding of the music fill me entirely..and i told myself i just want to keep moving my legs to the music. i promise this time i'll get myself MOS CDs..to think the 1st ones i ripped were from aaron.. MOS is TRICIA's SOLUTION To MARATHON AGONY!

work is now of fuzzy grey and it's doesn't seem to be making much sense to me. there are things i know i must do and those are in clear light..however, those which are expected of me..and those others perceive of me, that's in the fuzz.

like christin said," if i gives me so much inner conflict, then seriously consider about it." yes, it is causing much inner conflict. and yes, i am seriously considering how helpful it is to me.

meanwhile, in all haziness of things, my consolation is knowing God, superboy and christin will always be by me. mummy is there too! silver lining around every dark cloud i guess. so, tricia, smile. =)

fat blasting and onto hanoi!

a little whimsical episode in my work today..blog it before it gets laughed away into the wind.

teacher j: hey..my class camp how liao? my 5star room ready?

colleagues cm: ya..6 star.

cm: and can see alot of stars at nite too.

teacher j: o_O

teacher j: actually i just need aircon la

me: yea..alot of natural aircon..that u can't turn off.

teacher j: can't turn off? o_O

the day started on a high note in the treble as i "attempted" for the first time to pack lunch for super boy. menu for the day: brown race (pre-fried with shallots and garlic), sardines and boiled broccoli. hope it's edible-licious for superboy's tummy.

after the hustle and bustle, we went for an ez 4km run. enjoyed it as we just chit chatted along..4km went by in a blink of an eye.

reading. just feeding my mind with alot of reading these days. daily Straits Times, Today.. and books.

the excitement for Hanoi trip is slowly raving up. got to settle accommodation soon..and also come up with a probable itinerary for the trip.

plan plan plan..i think that's one thing i caught on from superboy. =)

going to take the bi easy coz i'm simply not prepared for it. worse case just get fished out! =P and marathon for me is a fat burning session..so i'm also going to take it easy.

alrites..back to my papers..sourcing for good places to visit, eat and shop!!