busy-ness keep loneliness at bay.

bidded my osprey bag goodbye on sat. i was left stranded with no big bags to run to work with. on desperate attempt, i nearly mobilised my 3yrs old deuter heavy trans alpine 25.

however, i'm so so thankful justin offered to lend me his salomon bag! it comes with hip and chest straps! woohoo! he came down to rl and passed it to me on sunday..immediately on that evening, it was tested with 9 canned food worth of load in it.

woke up this morning feeling my whole body was going to fall apart. awwwwwwwwwww! tempted, i was, to just message nelson to apply for half a day of time-off and just climb back to bed. but somehow, as i sat at the sofa stoning, i stilll wriggled myself out of the laziness and forced myself to get out of the house. walked to the bus stop before i started a slow jog. it was a mental challenge, more than a physical one.. pushing myself to move despite feeling the fatigue. boy, was it tough! nevertheless, somehow i managed to slowly jog and make my way to work. the salomon bag is sweet to carry and run with. thanks, justin. don't blame me for deflowering it!

i chickened out on mountain biking with weiliang and people. somehow i just didn't want them to end up waiting for me again. but i do know i NEED to mountain bike more as sabah race draws nearer. oh gee.

feeling so torn between working to earn more, trying to find time to go shopping with my mum and training. torn. into bits.

after my first ever game of sudoko, i switched palmy off and just looked out the window of the bus. shona suddenly came to mind. she's a primary school mate of mine, married to my cousin. almost immediately, envy filled every inch of my brain. there she is, same age as me, married to my cousin, who is just someone i would love to marry to. he's just such a gentleman.

and here i am, whining away, feeling for a moment, a void in my heart..wondering if i'll ever find a nice person to marry.

-slaps her own face-

okok, wake up wake up.

busy-ness keep loneliness at bay.