could i throw the mountain bike away and just walk away?
could i just stop trying so hard?
why does giving up seems so easy?
why is holding on so tough?
this morning's ride at bt wrecked my esteem. i start to question myself once all over again. can i do this?
one voice says, "give up, tricia. why are u battering yourself like that? take the ez route. throw in the towel. walk away. c'mon, give up!"
another voice says, " this is sooooooo not tricia's style. give up? without putting up a tough fight at least?"
"you sure you can overcome the fear?"
"there has to be a way, isn't it? i haven't tried hard enough."
"i should be out there running. the weather is beautiful."
"i'm tired. i just want to STOP completely."
"another hour passed and i wasted it dwelling in melancholy."
bidded apr2's race goodbye.
when i cannot take it anymore, crying is not a bad thing to do.
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