decided to go for sac after all. i asked myself if i would regret if i let it pass my by. my answer is yes. hence i'm taking the risk..my fate lies in avtar's hands now.. to get me suitable team mates.. and of course, i will be praying that i'll be blessed with team mates who are easy to race with.
keeps her fingers crossed.
i know how badly i need to be riding off road but i'm just full of apprehension. on one hand i really hope to have people i can ride with..coz it can get pretty dangerous riding alone in the trails..but i don't want to let my slow speed hamper the progress of my friends.. weiliang, ken and people are the usual group i ride with..however i feel bad when they have to wait up for me..and i feel worse when i stay back at an upslope hoping by trying numerous times, i would be able to clear it.. they would be there with me.. though they don't have to do so.
once again, i'm at the cross road feeling torn. maybe i should just ride on my own. crash into the bushes once again. cry alone. pull myself up on my own. praying nothing serious would happen.
will be joining shifu's osim class starting next thurs. i don't think i'll be continuing with han.. coz i feel that i want training that would make me whack hard. for that, shifu's new class is right on time. transition is perfect.
don't ask me how i did it. i lost my uob atm card. gee. $5 to replace one. sheesh.
run. tmr is steady run to beauty world. noon run and jog. lifesaving trial at night.
have been wanting to talk to zhenghui for the longest time, but he doesn't seem to have time. whatever. i give up. i hope i find someone else to toss those children's camp, groupwork and ministry thoughts with. don't say you've got time, the truth is you don't. even if you do, you won't spare it to listen to me, right?
was pouring some of my rants to jie today. sigh. after a while we do just give up don't we?
but as i was telling a friend, if it's something within my control, i WILL NOT give up so easily. NOT without a FIGHT.
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