have u ever experienced this.. going to a foodcourt with a friend.. you bought a bowl of wantan mee..and your friend bought for herself chicken chop with gooey gravy and mashed potatoes. u went, "what.....i shd have bought western food too! o_O
so often we peer over the fence and find the grass on the other side of the pasture greener.
this is probably what i am doing right now. peering all over and finding whatever on my plate uninteresting.
question: who can tell if the grass really IS greener? or if that chicken chop really DOES taste better than wantan mee?
napfa is just a stone away and i have not attempted to do any standing broad jump at all. ho seh liao.
my back and left ankle are sore from yesterday's 2hrs badminton game. ouch. feel so ah-mah-ish.
riding theory test tonight. tricia, please pass!!!
Monday, October 30, 2006
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
profound strength
have been really into badminton recently..and one important lesson i learnt from playing badminton, apart from being more alert and twitching my reflexes more... this is it..
"strength without control is of little use"
"strength without control is of little use"
aim for the moon, land among the stars
received the mail from the army for napfa test. 2 weeks away. aiming for the gold but i'm really worried about the standing broad jump and seat & reach...haven't done shuttle runs in ages too. help. help. help!! anyone can offer tips as to how i can jump further? reach further? run swifter?
driving was a whole load of fun, minus all the "wrong, wrong, wrong"s from the instructor. apparently i was dragging the car too much as i procrastinated too long to change gears.. why change to 4th when i'm just 200m away from shifting it back to 3rd gear..grrrr.. almost hit a motorbike while turning out to the main road coz i didn't see it speeding down my lane..and my attention was on the big contruction lorry which was coming down the next lane. thank goodness the instructor stepped on the brake. phew!!! my oh my!
the instructor gave me a affirmation that i shd be trying for my women officer post in the army.. he asked," i see your pattern, u shd try for army leh." i grinned and replied," yea..going..going."
i'm keeping my options open.. army kind of interest me for now =)
heard josh mentioned about a likely collaboration with greenridge primary as the principal asked nelson to put in a proposal for step up next year. with west spring upcoming..our plates are getting full. somehow i asked myself if that'll be a pull factor to make me stay..i stopped short.
yes, coz that'll mean i'll probably get to run groupworks, which i really do enjoy. yes, coz it means more opportunities for me to learn new things?
no, coz i'll be doing the same things i've been doing for the past 2.5years. no, coz if christin isn't going to be around..and it's just josh and i again. gee.. i don't quite want to think about it. no, coz it'll cause me to shelf aside my opportunity to expose myself to a different working environment and the chance to gather new experience.
powerman simulation was done on monday..somehow the weather turned out abit cooler than i hoped for.. but along with the shady noon, came gusts of wind..the headwind was frustrating..but it was good training nonetheless. clocked 10km run, 80km bike (60+20), another 8-9km or so at the end. billy is really a great training buddy. having him around enabled me to keep going and not stop half way. i must admit that after the first run, going on to the bike was a little trying..my quads were kind of sore in some ways..and pedalling felt like the last thing i wanted to do. i was grumpling about the last run leg when billy took me from tpy to braddell, coming close to macrit..then turning up to tpy..it felt like a never ending run for goodness sake.. however, i loved the feeling of completing the entire training..such a sense of accomplishment..woohoo! =)
bernard kept reminding me about my base work..need to up my mileage for bike soon..it is so important for me now..given powerman is just a stone away.
he also asked me if i felt ready for powerman. i paused.
ready, yes i guess. but i was (am i still? hmm?..) aiming for top 8..that i'm not too sure if i'll be capable of..but i'll still go there and do my best. top 8 or not..at least i must put in my best effort.
tall dreams some may think..but i don't care.. coz i remember this saying that goes,
"aim for the moon, if you don't hit it, at least you''ll land among the stars."
driving was a whole load of fun, minus all the "wrong, wrong, wrong"s from the instructor. apparently i was dragging the car too much as i procrastinated too long to change gears.. why change to 4th when i'm just 200m away from shifting it back to 3rd gear..grrrr.. almost hit a motorbike while turning out to the main road coz i didn't see it speeding down my lane..and my attention was on the big contruction lorry which was coming down the next lane. thank goodness the instructor stepped on the brake. phew!!! my oh my!
the instructor gave me a affirmation that i shd be trying for my women officer post in the army.. he asked," i see your pattern, u shd try for army leh." i grinned and replied," yea..going..going."
i'm keeping my options open.. army kind of interest me for now =)
heard josh mentioned about a likely collaboration with greenridge primary as the principal asked nelson to put in a proposal for step up next year. with west spring upcoming..our plates are getting full. somehow i asked myself if that'll be a pull factor to make me stay..i stopped short.
yes, coz that'll mean i'll probably get to run groupworks, which i really do enjoy. yes, coz it means more opportunities for me to learn new things?
no, coz i'll be doing the same things i've been doing for the past 2.5years. no, coz if christin isn't going to be around..and it's just josh and i again. gee.. i don't quite want to think about it. no, coz it'll cause me to shelf aside my opportunity to expose myself to a different working environment and the chance to gather new experience.
powerman simulation was done on monday..somehow the weather turned out abit cooler than i hoped for.. but along with the shady noon, came gusts of wind..the headwind was frustrating..but it was good training nonetheless. clocked 10km run, 80km bike (60+20), another 8-9km or so at the end. billy is really a great training buddy. having him around enabled me to keep going and not stop half way. i must admit that after the first run, going on to the bike was a little trying..my quads were kind of sore in some ways..and pedalling felt like the last thing i wanted to do. i was grumpling about the last run leg when billy took me from tpy to braddell, coming close to macrit..then turning up to tpy..it felt like a never ending run for goodness sake.. however, i loved the feeling of completing the entire training..such a sense of accomplishment..woohoo! =)
bernard kept reminding me about my base work..need to up my mileage for bike soon..it is so important for me now..given powerman is just a stone away.
he also asked me if i felt ready for powerman. i paused.
ready, yes i guess. but i was (am i still? hmm?..) aiming for top 8..that i'm not too sure if i'll be capable of..but i'll still go there and do my best. top 8 or not..at least i must put in my best effort.
tall dreams some may think..but i don't care.. coz i remember this saying that goes,
"aim for the moon, if you don't hit it, at least you''ll land among the stars."
Thursday, October 19, 2006
personal best for 2.4km
some consolation..after such a long break from doing 2.4km intervals..i'm back at it today again..
i was giving myself 18min/set for 3 sets..and guess what i did..
1st set - 14:23
2nd set - 13:46
3rd set - 11:12
it's a personal best for me..i was wondering if i saw the wrong timing or could i have short counted 1 lap..but i remembered when i finished 3 laps i was slightly over 6mins..and my last 2 laps i was chasing this uncle in front of me..as i chionged after him at hr of 176 for my last 2 laps.. i surprised myself with a nice 11:12.
woohoo! uncle pacer rocks!! =)
i was giving myself 18min/set for 3 sets..and guess what i did..
1st set - 14:23
2nd set - 13:46
3rd set - 11:12
it's a personal best for me..i was wondering if i saw the wrong timing or could i have short counted 1 lap..but i remembered when i finished 3 laps i was slightly over 6mins..and my last 2 laps i was chasing this uncle in front of me..as i chionged after him at hr of 176 for my last 2 laps.. i surprised myself with a nice 11:12.
woohoo! uncle pacer rocks!! =)
Wednesday, October 18, 2006
to fight, is a choice.
have u ever felt there is something you want to do for yourself but the thought of it intimidates you so. you've attempted it for a brief while..only to throw in the towel and mentally convinced yourself that "nah..i can't do it. that's not for me."
would you just turn your back against it and walk away..leaving that one thing a defeated episode in life?
or would you fight? despite knowing fighting upstream is always tough?
would you shake off the dust on your shoulders and say, yes i will try again?
to fight, is a choice.
would you just turn your back against it and walk away..leaving that one thing a defeated episode in life?
or would you fight? despite knowing fighting upstream is always tough?
would you shake off the dust on your shoulders and say, yes i will try again?
to fight, is a choice.
lousy mid week
the haze this morning got into my head. breathing was hard.. i thought my fitness level has dropped or something..why was i taking more breathes to sustain myself.. we decided to cut the 60km bike short to a 40km one instead. it shall be continued tomorrow. haze, haze, go away..little children wants to play!
attending lifesaving tonight after quite a long lapse. last week was partially due to work and the haze..this week i really got to go before mohktar boots me out of the test.
put the wrong date on my palm n i missed my driving pract on monday. i marked it as wed. crap. crap. crap!! i feel like banging my head against the wall and die. =S
it ruined my entire day.
good thing i made the check.. else i would have ran to bbdc only to realise my mistake there.
lousy mid week.
attending lifesaving tonight after quite a long lapse. last week was partially due to work and the haze..this week i really got to go before mohktar boots me out of the test.
put the wrong date on my palm n i missed my driving pract on monday. i marked it as wed. crap. crap. crap!! i feel like banging my head against the wall and die. =S
it ruined my entire day.
good thing i made the check.. else i would have ran to bbdc only to realise my mistake there.
lousy mid week.
Monday, October 16, 2006
pe teacher for tricia?
sleepy monday. somehow i managed to drag myself out to run 4km and climb the stairs back home. did feel quite nice after the run..but the aftermath of it is a little too much to handle for now. =0 (yawns)
what a sluggish way to start a new week. =S
the haze situation is deteriorating. i hope it won't disrupt with my training too much.
there's a tinge of jealousy sometimes. a competitive inner me would tell myself i must do more than her. i don't want to lose out to her. im langkawi is coming. brace yourself strong for a fight; i've got no one to prove to, maybe just myself.
revisited the reason why i would want to go for the physical proficiency test if i have no intentions to be a pe teacher in the first place. the thought of teaching an academic subject freaks me out, though the drawing points of the job are the interaction with students and being engaged with sports, which i am passionately in love with.
got to think it through and if i have to inform them i'm not going, do so before fri.
what a sluggish way to start a new week. =S
the haze situation is deteriorating. i hope it won't disrupt with my training too much.
there's a tinge of jealousy sometimes. a competitive inner me would tell myself i must do more than her. i don't want to lose out to her. im langkawi is coming. brace yourself strong for a fight; i've got no one to prove to, maybe just myself.
revisited the reason why i would want to go for the physical proficiency test if i have no intentions to be a pe teacher in the first place. the thought of teaching an academic subject freaks me out, though the drawing points of the job are the interaction with students and being engaged with sports, which i am passionately in love with.
got to think it through and if i have to inform them i'm not going, do so before fri.
Friday, October 13, 2006
p for slim
the earliest i can take my driving test would be end of feb..but i haven't top up my account..so i think i'll just go for 1 march. gee. i was hoping i could do it end of jan. we can't have things go the way we want to i guess.
racing heartbeat. light headedness.
for all the suffering, it better work.
racing heartbeat. light headedness.
for all the suffering, it better work.
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
i broke the curse!!
i broke the friggin curse! i woke up on my own at a 3:45am. i woke up just as my hp's alarm started to sound. my radio started to sound slightly around that time and my brinjal clock oso sounded shortly after.
i really love the alarm on my hp. it has a snooze function. if i just press it without disabling the snooze, it'll begin to sound 10mins later. which is great..for someone so lazy like me. =P
hope this continues on. tmr i want to join bernard's recovery ride. i hope i can catch up. (keeps her fingers n toes crossed =X)
tried my best to maintain the 130 (to abt 140) bpm throughout the entire ride, as bernard taught me. not easy as it'll jump up on the climbs and dip on the downs. but on flats i kept it around that range.
more base rides to come. tricia needs to rebuild her biking base again. 1 mth to powerman. i need to rebuild it fast.
jia you tricia. 2nd day into the im training programme n it seems to be still going good. keep it up.
signed up with the nike runnerholic thingie. hmm..their sunday runs at 730am is abit disruptive to normal training. ecp is really out of the place, frankly. the best way to get there is to bike.
will be joining the 110km bike with bernard this sat.. running off about 16km to spe then swim on sunday. for the tough training, i'm going to pig out! tom yam soup! (craving for spicy food)..subway!! haehehaehea..here i come!! =D
i really love the alarm on my hp. it has a snooze function. if i just press it without disabling the snooze, it'll begin to sound 10mins later. which is great..for someone so lazy like me. =P
hope this continues on. tmr i want to join bernard's recovery ride. i hope i can catch up. (keeps her fingers n toes crossed =X)
tried my best to maintain the 130 (to abt 140) bpm throughout the entire ride, as bernard taught me. not easy as it'll jump up on the climbs and dip on the downs. but on flats i kept it around that range.
more base rides to come. tricia needs to rebuild her biking base again. 1 mth to powerman. i need to rebuild it fast.
jia you tricia. 2nd day into the im training programme n it seems to be still going good. keep it up.
signed up with the nike runnerholic thingie. hmm..their sunday runs at 730am is abit disruptive to normal training. ecp is really out of the place, frankly. the best way to get there is to bike.
will be joining the 110km bike with bernard this sat.. running off about 16km to spe then swim on sunday. for the tough training, i'm going to pig out! tom yam soup! (craving for spicy food)..subway!! haehehaehea..here i come!! =D
Monday, October 09, 2006
5 persons u'll meet in heaven
thought came to me as i was doing my noon run. i notice we sometimes take on traits of the people around us. certain habits..certain attributes..certain likes..certain dislikes.
i introspected at myself and i found these which i caught on from my friends through the years. those friends probably had a significant influence in my life. =)
drinking earl grey tea - lydia
liking quality outdoor brands like gregory & chaco - dex
drinking warm water at night after a meal - billy
reading love novels - aiping
taking up triathlon - choonwei
hmm..these r the more significant ones i can think of right now. wa..5 persons..(thinks of book: 5 persons u'll meet in heaven)
6.5km run & 1 set of stairs done. i've got 3.1km to go to cover the planned 9.6km. i'll be doing a 4km run tonight after biking home from training. brick training!
stay motivated n focus gal!!
i introspected at myself and i found these which i caught on from my friends through the years. those friends probably had a significant influence in my life. =)
drinking earl grey tea - lydia
liking quality outdoor brands like gregory & chaco - dex
drinking warm water at night after a meal - billy
reading love novels - aiping
taking up triathlon - choonwei
hmm..these r the more significant ones i can think of right now. wa..5 persons..(thinks of book: 5 persons u'll meet in heaven)
6.5km run & 1 set of stairs done. i've got 3.1km to go to cover the planned 9.6km. i'll be doing a 4km run tonight after biking home from training. brick training!
stay motivated n focus gal!!
k610i yay!
i'll not be having any work at rl next weekend. so that means i'll be able to plan a longer training over sat & sun.
the following wkend i'll be in m'sia, so again, no work at rl.
23 oct, nelson will be declaring off day for us. yipee!! too bad i planned for driving in the morning from 8am..else i could have more training done.
everything in my head is training, training and more training..
9.6km run today..i'll be doing a long run around bt panjang later.
billy let me use his singtel plan phone upgrade and i gotten myself a sony ericsson k610i. it's really a babe. let me post some pics of it later. and best of all, i only had to pay $138. the hp i've been using is passed to my mum. i can't stand seeing her use a faulty nokia phone.. if i had more money i would probably buy her a new phone or something...but i guess i couldn't resist the opportunity to get myself a new phone too. gee..come to think about it..am i giving my mother 2nd best. =(
it's kind of too long for my current hp pouch, so i'm hoping to find a nice plastic protective case to keep it from scratches and probably a nice pouch to pop it in. anyone's place having pasar malam now?? =P
christin asked of me to take over the kidz camp portfolio and coordinate the entire nov kidz camp. i've been doing a more assisting role all these while while christin took the lead. i am apprehensive about it all up and spear heading it. hence i actually rejected the offer as i don't think i have suffice motivation and time. kidz camp feels like a task i need to do..and i would just prefer a do-what-i-am-told role for now. somehow i have no more of myself to give to the kidz club.. just want to get by..
i wonder if anyone understands the tug of war that goes on in my heart when it comes to training. i need to take the first step out, but fear cripples me..and i don't have enough assurrance that i can get through it. someone..help?
tomorrow is riding evaluation (again)..and i haven't touched my books (yes, again). i am bent to go thru the basic theory book 3 times by end of the work hours.. trying to finish up my novels as well.
let's hope the entire process of obtaining my bike n car licenses would go well. (keeps her fingers crossed...how many fingers can we cross anyway? = )
the following wkend i'll be in m'sia, so again, no work at rl.
23 oct, nelson will be declaring off day for us. yipee!! too bad i planned for driving in the morning from 8am..else i could have more training done.
everything in my head is training, training and more training..
9.6km run today..i'll be doing a long run around bt panjang later.
billy let me use his singtel plan phone upgrade and i gotten myself a sony ericsson k610i. it's really a babe. let me post some pics of it later. and best of all, i only had to pay $138. the hp i've been using is passed to my mum. i can't stand seeing her use a faulty nokia phone.. if i had more money i would probably buy her a new phone or something...but i guess i couldn't resist the opportunity to get myself a new phone too. gee..come to think about it..am i giving my mother 2nd best. =(
it's kind of too long for my current hp pouch, so i'm hoping to find a nice plastic protective case to keep it from scratches and probably a nice pouch to pop it in. anyone's place having pasar malam now?? =P
christin asked of me to take over the kidz camp portfolio and coordinate the entire nov kidz camp. i've been doing a more assisting role all these while while christin took the lead. i am apprehensive about it all up and spear heading it. hence i actually rejected the offer as i don't think i have suffice motivation and time. kidz camp feels like a task i need to do..and i would just prefer a do-what-i-am-told role for now. somehow i have no more of myself to give to the kidz club.. just want to get by..
i wonder if anyone understands the tug of war that goes on in my heart when it comes to training. i need to take the first step out, but fear cripples me..and i don't have enough assurrance that i can get through it. someone..help?
tomorrow is riding evaluation (again)..and i haven't touched my books (yes, again). i am bent to go thru the basic theory book 3 times by end of the work hours.. trying to finish up my novels as well.
let's hope the entire process of obtaining my bike n car licenses would go well. (keeps her fingers crossed...how many fingers can we cross anyway? = )
Friday, October 06, 2006
mooncake day
had a heart to heart talk with christin earlier. never thought we'll share so much of the same sentiments pertaining to work. glad i could talk to her about the work situation at nl.
ate 1/2 mooncake made by dorothy. super unhealthy..but it's nice =)
can i confess i'm not really in the mood for ls..i rather run n bike.
ate 1/2 mooncake made by dorothy. super unhealthy..but it's nice =)
can i confess i'm not really in the mood for ls..i rather run n bike.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
a day at the hub
today i'm on duty at the youth hub...and it was an eventful day. very happening..=
- theft case. guy a lost his wallet and everyone around denied taking it. nelson viewed the cctv and found the culprit. confronted guy b. no choice but to admit. returned the wallet. now as i type this entry. guy a and guy b are playing pool together. =) happy ending. not bad lar.
- gal a was reduced to tears as guy c wanted to kick her. gal b stopped guy c on time to prevent the kick. guy c left before i could talk to him. spoke to gal a & b. told them if it happens again, always report it immediately. tsk tsk tsk..guy c..so ungentlemanly. hai.
- hanky panky business that goes on pretty often.
- defiance (not uncommon)
- confiscated a cigarette from gal b as she was passing it to guy d. i told her.." i see 1 stick, i confiscate 1 stick. i see 1 packet, i confiscate 1 packet." don't know wat to do with the cigarette now. it's lying on my table. i collect a few more sticks and i can resale it to adult smokers. =P
what a day. i'll probably enjoy the dryland torment later. =D
- theft case. guy a lost his wallet and everyone around denied taking it. nelson viewed the cctv and found the culprit. confronted guy b. no choice but to admit. returned the wallet. now as i type this entry. guy a and guy b are playing pool together. =) happy ending. not bad lar.
- gal a was reduced to tears as guy c wanted to kick her. gal b stopped guy c on time to prevent the kick. guy c left before i could talk to him. spoke to gal a & b. told them if it happens again, always report it immediately. tsk tsk tsk..guy c..so ungentlemanly. hai.
- hanky panky business that goes on pretty often.
- defiance (not uncommon)
- confiscated a cigarette from gal b as she was passing it to guy d. i told her.." i see 1 stick, i confiscate 1 stick. i see 1 packet, i confiscate 1 packet." don't know wat to do with the cigarette now. it's lying on my table. i collect a few more sticks and i can resale it to adult smokers. =P
what a day. i'll probably enjoy the dryland torment later. =D
fighter must FIGHT!!
new training programme will commence soon. truthfully, i'm full of apprehension. just fearful if tricia will be able to handle it.
when has the fighter become so unsure of herself? =X
i must fight on...
when has the fighter become so unsure of herself? =X
i must fight on...
Wednesday, October 04, 2006
i'm in a turmoil
i cannot decide. do want to rest after that tormentous swim training yesterday..but to skip lifesaving when test is coming soon... is it wise?
but if i went for the training tonite, it'll mean i'll be dead tired tmr..probably won't be able to do any training tomorrow then.
i should be able to still pull through tonight if i wanted to.
so put down by bernard. ouch. what he said hit me so hard =(
sigh.
but if i went for the training tonite, it'll mean i'll be dead tired tmr..probably won't be able to do any training tomorrow then.
i should be able to still pull through tonight if i wanted to.
so put down by bernard. ouch. what he said hit me so hard =(
sigh.
i am reading again
borrowed 3 books from the library yesterday. 2 of nicholas sparks and 1 of barbara delinsky. started off with the delinsky first as it's the thinnest. haven't been digging into books for quite some while..needed something to start my engine going.
this morning as betty used my pc to do some work for sr, i took the time to read. completed 2 chapters and i feel real satisfied..that after-meal satisfaction!
main focus these days would be to getting my driving license, start on my biking license, training...getting faster.. trekking. in this list, there is not much of the work i am doing.
honestly just hanging on for the sake of hanging on. market's slow as many are hanging on like myself, for bonus sake. it'll pick up once the new year starts. people will start quitting their jobs and moving on.
i'm acting kind of weird these days.. feeling fat. fat. fat.
swam with hand paddles yesterday..this morning my shoulders and lats hurt big time. when i removed the paddles, my fingers were near to a cramp, couldn't straighten them. =S nonetheless, i like the feeling of pulling the water with the paddles..could really feel the propulsion..and the heaviness..when i swam without the paddles, i felt i wasn't catching as much water.
i am a multi tasker. blogging, doing my ophir ration budgetting, talking to isabel and eating my lunch. woohoo..
got to study for my riding evaluation..booked it on next tues..
lifesaving bm test is at end of oct.
a whole lot to look forward to. none of it work related. haha.
this morning as betty used my pc to do some work for sr, i took the time to read. completed 2 chapters and i feel real satisfied..that after-meal satisfaction!
main focus these days would be to getting my driving license, start on my biking license, training...getting faster.. trekking. in this list, there is not much of the work i am doing.
honestly just hanging on for the sake of hanging on. market's slow as many are hanging on like myself, for bonus sake. it'll pick up once the new year starts. people will start quitting their jobs and moving on.
i'm acting kind of weird these days.. feeling fat. fat. fat.
swam with hand paddles yesterday..this morning my shoulders and lats hurt big time. when i removed the paddles, my fingers were near to a cramp, couldn't straighten them. =S nonetheless, i like the feeling of pulling the water with the paddles..could really feel the propulsion..and the heaviness..when i swam without the paddles, i felt i wasn't catching as much water.
i am a multi tasker. blogging, doing my ophir ration budgetting, talking to isabel and eating my lunch. woohoo..
got to study for my riding evaluation..booked it on next tues..
lifesaving bm test is at end of oct.
a whole lot to look forward to. none of it work related. haha.
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