I have hit the end of my 3rd week with my new company. The work burden has been heavy; with last year’s back log and audit to deal with and also the new year’s reporting to be done.
At several junctures within the 3 weeks, I was close to giving up. Dearie’s constant encouragement kept me going.
I often come to office with a heavy heart, wondering how late into the night do I have to work into. Which having done that, I still can’t clear many of the outstanding on my plate.
I miss having time to clean our house and cooking for dearie. I miss having time to run and let the endorphins rush through my body. i have traded much of that to be in a position higher than before.
Perhaps my capabilities are not sufficient, because I find myself struggling with the yoke clumsily. They say it takes time to accustom to the new environment and expectations. Yet again, I feel less than competent.
When I get home I am often dead tired. My mind says I want to go for a run to refresh myself, but my body just wants to sink into the couch. My mind says I want to cook a nice hot dinner for dearie to come home to, but by the time I get to leave office, it has past dinner time.
I still need time to come to terms with a new lifestyle. I am bearing some hope that things will get better after I clear the backlog and audit.
I really yearn to start work this year right. I want to get things right. I hope it is not that difficult.
Today marks 1 month and I am still struggling. My head droops down and my shoulders hang low. Yesterday night I broke record and left last in the office. Insomnia plagued me and my nose so stuffy I could barely breathe.
