3.5 mths review

I missed doing a review of my 3rd month with this company. Doing a late 3.5 month one instead.

There were a couple of learning opportunities given by the director. I have taken them on, with an effort to get the best out of them. Nonetheless it can be daunting at times; dabbling with things I have not done before. But I am thankful for a supportive boss.. a demanding but still relatively reasonable director..and good colleagues I can share woes with.

The overall performance of the company remains unimpressive. The quarter in red will land the company in a sub-optimal financial position for the whole year. There is a whole lot to catch up on for the next 3 quarter. As we begin 2nd quarter, I am still not seeing the light. The management is getting all jittery about it. I am finding the peformance demoralizing because it will mean the company will have less to reward its people with. It will mean more cost cutting measures too. I am trying to not let the monetary issue get in the way and turn my focus on the learning opportunities and growth. The six months mark to confirmation still seems far out of sight.

The target is still set at 2 years for the moment. I have completed almost 3.5months out of 24. 85% or 20.5 months to go.

Dearie had finished his exam yesterday, finally marking the completion of his 2nd term. We have just 1 more year to go and we know it will be worth all the time and effort.

finding reasons..to go on.

I realise it is about finding reasons to go on.

I was on the verge to throw the towel in...but dearie reminded reasons to go on. Why am I here in the first place? What did I set out to achieve?

No matter where I go there will be challenges. There will be bound to be difficult people which I will have to learn to deal with. Everyone makes mistakes. What makes us stand out from the rest is how we pick ourselves up and learn from the mistakes.

I have a long way to go. And for now, there is no giving up.

P.S: I like this photo of the tree at the hill around Lake Kawaguchi. Aww..i miss Japan!

laptops & leaps

The whole ordeal of using a sluggish laptop has driven me up the wall. On final resort, despite not wanting to lug my own laptop to and fro, I brought my own today.

After switching on the laptop and using it, I wish I have done so earlier. It would have saved me from a lot of frustration. I have voiced out on several occasions about my unhappiness with the company’s laptop. Nothing was done. I received some sniggles instead. I felt it was totally uncalled for.

I think it is only fair that the company provides its staff with decent tools. Obviously the laptop is not decent. It is almost comparable to the 10 year-old desktop I used in my previous company. Call me impatient, but when you are pushed by the management to produce timely reports and quick responses, the slow laptop can really top the frustration off.

If I am being questioned why I am using a personal computer at work, I will ask them to look at the laptop allocated. Perhaps they can have a go on it and see if they will like working with it. If the company is not doing anything about it, I am.

I’ve been feeling irritable at work. I have issues making sense of the disclosures and segregation they want to make. There are also many things I am still coming to terms with.

After working through my Sunday, I submitted the report only to be returned twice with changes. Not because it is wrong..but because it has to be presented in other ways.

I remind myself I am learning. I need to adapt. I have to follow. i need to get the hang of it. In these times, I tell myself, there is an end to this. Another 1 year and 9 months. Let’s hope the next leap will be a better one.

small speck big world

I received my namecard yesterday. Looked at it for a moment and just felt mildly pleased that I have attained that title placed beneath my name. As I put the 2 boxes of name cards back, a vendor’s name card lied nearby in my drawer. I imagined how perfect it will be if my name was imprinted on a namecard from that company. To add the cherry to the icing, maybe with his title beneath my name. tax director. Haha..that’s dreaming beyond my league.

Shuts the drawer. End of dream.

My thoughts were diverted to some unhappiness of pay disparity in the company. It happens everywhere. I am just learning to come to terms with it; that there will always be some who are favoured. Some who can wriggle themselves into good positions without truly having the capabilities. Some who can get away with things. Hard work is like Chinese medicine. It is slow to effect.

Dearie is right. Albeit feeling unjustified, I will choose to continue to work hard. Give my best to things so my conscience is clear. So that I can be blameless in front of those who assess me. So that i can be proud that I made it to where I am with what my capabilities and what I can offer to the company. I will get there. It is a matter of time. And time will prove capabilities.

I started to think how else can I add value to my work. Would going for a financial modeling course help? How well will getting a tax accreditation sit into my career? Would getting the cfa add more value to me?

The whole investment thing I’ve been trying to master is still a big blur. I stared at the charts and wondered what should I be doing? I read my book and still found no answers. There is a sea of counters out there. So which one? When? How much?

I still have a lot of questions to answer and things to find out. I found it somewhat startling to realize how little I know.

cervelo no more

I am looking to sell my cervelo bike soon. It is sad that I have to price it so low but 2^nd hand bikes don’t seem to have much value. In this affluent society, used items are not in demand. People can easily afford new bikes.

I feel sorry because the condition of the cervelo surely deserves a lot more. Yet, if I don’t depress the price, I won’t be able to sell. I do not use it at all and leaving it to hang there is such a waste.

I do not think I will ever find the discipline to be out biking at 4am. There just isn’t a need for me to do so.

Price not right, don’t sell? Or just price it cheaply and sell it off? I’m caught and torn.

investing?

I read about a one-eyed investor who shorted against sub-prime mortgages, profiteering millions upon its collapse. Shrewd I would say. He is like the less publicized Warren Buffet, who saw what others couldn’t see. He had an autism like disorder though and somehow attributed to his obsession with facts and justice. I liked what I read but wondered if I can one day become like him.

But to imagine going through prospectus of asset backed mortgages, each bearing a hundred pages with jargons. I am not sure how I could survive that. And his mantra for investing is in simple terms: when people go A, you will choose B. Easier said than done in reality. On books it makes total sense but not many can hold on this path.

Somehow it sums up to me that I have to learn to devour information around me. It is important to make sense out of news I read everyday. What does it signal about the market? What impacts are made? How can I profit from it? What are the tools available for me to do so?

On the flipside, I think we must realize that all’s but a zero-sum game. The investor may have profited, but there are others who have lost. When you buy, someone has to sell. Your gain is someone’s loss. What we can hope is our gain is from someone who could afford to lose.

dreamer

This is soon going to be a monthly routine – review of the month gone by. Today marks 2 months into the new job. Audit is soon coming to an end (finally!). I have sent in the draft accounts and hope the finalized copy can be out soon.

I am still clearing my February reports, consolidation reports and presentation for the stewardship meeting next Friday. With all that done, I should be more or less on time and close clearing the back log.

The load is easing out, most definitely, and I am slowly getting the hang of being chased for reports and multi-tasking. There are still issues along the way I am learning to handle and still processesI must get into the flow of. I am giving myself duration of 2 years, during which I will persevere in this company.

The graduation ceremony will be held this Saturday. Apart that it marks completion of a milestone, it also serves as a reminder I must “recoup” the money and time I have put into studying. I have dug deep into my savings to finance through my studies and committed 1.5 years of my "youth" into it. These are not done for fun but in hope to yield increased returns from this self investment. To me it is an extra oar in my hands to paddle myself against the tide. I cannot turn the tide but every skill and knowledge I pick up is that added strength against it.

i have been a dreamer all my life. During my last job, I dreamt of having a seat with a window.

My boss and supervisor back then had their own rooms and windows. My seat, along with the rest in my department, was within the building, window-less. I told myself then, "I want to have my own personal cubicle with window."

And now I have. I’m in this nice cosy backend cubicle, right next to the window. I like looking out and spending moments staring blankly at the expressway..into the greenery and thinking, "it’s good to be able to see so much from this level. I will be able to see more if I climbed higher."

Now I have started dreaming again. I relish in the thought of being in the position of this director in my office. He is in charge of investments. I noticed he has 2 laptops - one of which shows charts and graphs; I think he constantly monitors market changes. I wish one day I can be competent in investment management that part of job scope is to analyse market changes and make sound investment for the company and myself. At the same time I look at financials and consider what it is reflecting of the business and its environment. That’s the kind of portfolio I hope to gradually get into. Someone with a macro view of things. Someone who can make wise decisions in the benefit of the company. Someone who is sought out for sound advice to the management.

Sounds like a big dream, isn’t it? dreams are like stars.. we can’t reach them but we use them to chart our way.=)

new pursuit with UOL

After coming back from Japan, I tossed with the idea of learning the Japanese language. The whole experience of learning continues to intrigue me, even as I just close my maf chapter.

I searched for a new goal; perhaps you can say it’s something to fill my time. Training has ended with the marathon. Work has gained some momentum. There was still spaces of time I was wondering how I could effectively utilize.

Training for another race doesn’t seem like something I was excited to do. I couldn’t be too bothered about all the ironman photos friends have posted on fb, to think it was once what I hailed the sole goal of my life. maybe I lack discipline to train everyday, to fuss about what pace and how much mileage I am clocking.

I run now, because I want to. Not because I am going to have a race. I run because it makes me feel good.

Until yesterday, I found a new goal in life. I want to learn how I can make our money work harder.

There was an interesting business model dearie could have ventured into, only if we had that financial independence to. But we did not. I felt helpless because I wish I could tell him, if this is what you feel is right, then go and try. However, I couldn’t. because I know we still needed his steady stream of income to keep things going. I am not able to handle all alone.

Take up a part time job? Go back into tutoring?

It made me think about the knowledge I have gained from maf. What am I doing with those skills gained? How am I going to use those skills to work for us?

We have little to spare but we have to start somewhere. I have always shoved the idea of investing aside because I felt we needed that liquidity. However, to think about it, if I don’t start now, I will never start.

How much liquidity do I actually need to be comfortable? I keep saying liquidity but I never quantified how much. Is it not time to sit down and review where we have parked our money at. How and where do we want to park the future income? What is there around us which can help us grow our money?

Time to get out of procrastination and start work. I gathered from an ex-classmate that I will need to do a lot of groundwork and reading. With the little I have, I can start with penny stocks.

This is the new goal for me – learning how to make our money work harder. To read up to compute to analyze. To understand. To try. To start.

Now, that’s something a new pursue with UOL; they call it the university of life (quote from ‘an education’).

hello tokyo

I have not got the chance to pen down my thoughts about our Tokyo trip since I returned last sat. work has been hectic; which I had foreseen coming. I am stealing moments off working hours now to write down some thoughts, before I get all too lazy of doing so.

The trip to japan opened my eyes; widened my horizons. I see a league one par above us. Their culture, their attitude, their lifestyle.

Holidays for us is more than mere having fun. It’s a time to observe how other people work, how their lives are organized and how all of that is different from ours.

We are full of praise about japan and Japanese. The only thing we can perhaps rant about is the barrier of language. Japanese pride themselves of their language, which binds them to their identity.

Despite the language barrier, they still extended their hospitality to non Japanese speaking people like us. Vending machines with photos, which we could just press to order food in food outlets. Strangers who despite not knowing what we meant, still took time to help us locate where we wanted to go.

The marathon was fantastic; best I’ve been to so far. Organization was great. There were crowds of people cheering us on throughout the ENTIRE race. I mean entire race. It was 3.8deg celcius, raining and yet the public cheered us on. It is simply amazing.

The rain got the better of me and I didn’t perform as I have expected. Nevertheless, like dearie said, it was a good experience. And of course, I learnt a valuable lesson on race preparation.

We took long walks around lake kawaguchi. We shopped down ginza, shibuya, Shinjuku and harajuku. We learned to hop from train station to train station without getting too lost. It was one week of holiday I truly enjoyed.

Next stop for 2011, korea. Time to save up again!

1 month

Today marks 1 month and I am still struggling. My head droops down and my shoulders hang low. Yesterday night I broke record and left last in the office. Insomnia plagued me and my nose so stuffy I could barely breathe.

How am i? if I could truthfully answer, I would say terrible. I try to tell myself it takes time but the torrents keep washing me backwards. A couple of times I wept, wondering where all these is going to get me to.

I hate this unhappiness that’s gnawing on me and it’s taking its toil.

How long can I hang on? Barely a month? Am I not a fighter?

3rd week

I have hit the end of my 3rd week with my new company. The work burden has been heavy; with last year’s back log and audit to deal with and also the new year’s reporting to be done.

At several junctures within the 3 weeks, I was close to giving up. Dearie’s constant encouragement kept me going.

I often come to office with a heavy heart, wondering how late into the night do I have to work into. Which having done that, I still can’t clear many of the outstanding on my plate.

I miss having time to clean our house and cooking for dearie. I miss having time to run and let the endorphins rush through my body. i have traded much of that to be in a position higher than before.

Perhaps my capabilities are not sufficient, because I find myself struggling with the yoke clumsily. They say it takes time to accustom to the new environment and expectations. Yet again, I feel less than competent.

When I get home I am often dead tired. My mind says I want to go for a run to refresh myself, but my body just wants to sink into the couch. My mind says I want to cook a nice hot dinner for dearie to come home to, but by the time I get to leave office, it has past dinner time.

I still need time to come to terms with a new lifestyle. I am bearing some hope that things will get better after I clear the backlog and audit.

I really yearn to start work this year right. I want to get things right. I hope it is not that difficult.

reality and change

The reality of corporate world – unforgiving and selfish.

The secretary came over to talk to me about my resignation. She commented that it would be good that I stayed a while more for the new accountant to come in. At the same time, wait for the bonus.

My immediate response within my heart was, “why should I?”

Why should I give up a good opportunity right before me, to provide my current company a smooth transition?

They have no intention to develop me and funny it was that she asked what plans I have.

Even if I have stated my plans to you, would you give me the chance to achieve it?

If it is yes, then they would not have advertised for the accountant position.

So what is her plan for me if I stayed? Assist the accountant for another 5-10 years?

She did not ask me to stay on till audit, because she knows I have a better offer which is the chance she did not want to give me.

I am willing to forgo the bonus because I believe the potential of my new job exceeds that.

Someone out there believes in me. Someone is going to give me a chance to leap one step up. And because someone has faith in me, I will give my all to achieve it.

Change is painful but necessary. I will not want to fall into that comfort zone. Sometimes because we have been in the same place for too long, moving becomes exceedingly difficult. We consider too much about the new challenges and doubt our abilities to face them. Before we know it, we shirk and delay change. I see that evidently when I converse with long-serving colleagues.

New company and business nature? take time to understand!

New accounting system? Go for training and pick up!

New bosses and colleagues? Take effort to build relationships.

New scope of work? Read up and learn!

New things bring learning and growth. =)

first post of 2010

I am on my final lap in my current company. I have made a list of work I must complete before my last day on the 14^th.

I want to do a good job even at the end; I want to leave the company with a clear conscience that I have handed over things to the best of my abilities. It’s my way to appreciate my boss for giving me a chance 3 years ago. He opened that door to let me rejoin accounting; something very few employers were willing to give to a person who has been out of the profession for a while.

Though I am grateful, I recognize there is no more room given for me to grow here. to move is the only choice left and I am sure the move is for the better.

We enjoyed the last of the long weekend for 2009 and commencing into 2010 feels a little strange. Maybe I am still working on the residuals of 2009 and of course, in terms of work per se, I am closing accounts for 2009.

Top of the list goal for 2010 is to excel in my new job. I resolute to continue spending quality time with my loved ones and building relationships that will last. i want to try my best to achieve a sub-4 marathon too, which I’ve been working on for the last 1.5 months.

These are things to look forward to – New challenges. New frontiers. New hope.

the old has gone

I broke my coffee mug this morning. Perhaps it is a sign that the old has gone and the new will come.

I Graduate!!

My last paper. =) I cleared.

Very thankful and grateful for those who have been with me through the journey. (Oops, another speech from me again)

But this is the last time I’ll be doing this (no more academic studies for me for the next 5 years at least!) so I want to express it nevertheless.

Thank you to dearie for the countless nights and days you have stayed with me to keep me company while I studied and rushed assignment. Thank you for the sacrifices you have made.

Thank you to mummy for her encouragement. I promise I will continue to do you proud and shine in the things I do.

Thank you, pa and ma for their support. Ma always made sure we had enough to eat and would get medication for me whenever she heard I was unwell. Pa was the one who first got me thinking about my life.

Thank you, Christin for being the listening ear and sister in my life. You constantly cheered me on and told me that the finish line was near.

Thank you to all my friends who jia-you-ed me on before my exams..hehe.

All of you made a difference in my life =) So glad to finish this lap with pretty decent results. Something I would dare to print out and show my prospective employers in the future! =D

Today I officially mark the completion of all the 3 goals set when I started my career back into the corporate world.

It is easy to set goals..but the crux is to be more than a goal setter, but be a goal achiever. I continue to work to be a goal achiever. That's my pursuit for life.

Next lap, here I come!!

cleaning and scrubbing for the new year

Spent a great weekend with dearie at home. We spent an accumulative 10 hours spanned over 3 days, to do so. Our home feels organized, clutter-free and a lot more pleasant now. In fact, I commented it feels tidier than when we first moved in. we dumped a whole lot of junk, cleared out old t-shirts to be given away and bought a new rack for the store room. With the rack, we created a lot more space and we organized our items in boxes to be stored away.

It was a joint effort and doing it together made the difference. =)

It is a lot more welcoming now for pa and ma who are visiting this Thursday. We cleared the main toilet so it could be used and I will give it a good scrub down to get it sparkling clean.

Apart from cleaning, we went shopping and had training on Sunday. The Christmas crowd was crazy but sales were enticing. Dearie bought me another Christmas gift from G2000 – a full working suit. He reminded it was my dream to wear a power suit and strut down Shenton Way. He said the gift can be used when I have meetings to attend. I am blessed! =)

We were both down with sore throat and runny nose for a couple of days and I believe that was why we felt a little lethargic during training. Don’t give up dearie. Let’s train up for a good run in Tokyo. We only have to train hard and smart thrice a week =)

3.5 working days for this week. Another 3.5 working days for next week, before it marks the end of 2009.

I am so looking forward to the Christmas holiday with our family and of course, the new year!

just another 15.5days

This isn’t good but I can’t help staring at my calendar daily and counting down mentally.

Anticipating a negative appraisal today; prepared for the worse. I have put up my defenses to protect myself. Not that I am going to deflect her presumptions of me, but more to stay calm and just bear through the 20-30mins I must sit through. It’s not worth losing my cool over because I don’t see reasons to justify myself. Everyone is free to have their own opinions.

I kept the advert to remind me what sort of a person she is. Though she holds the decision making authority in the department but her decisions does not earn the respect from the rest of us. we follow not because we agree with the things she do but because our opinions are irrelevant and we are told to follow as instructed. period.

The whole sense of helplessness looms over my department these days. It seems so familiar as we last had this feeling during mich’s dismissal too.

I took a while to try to fathom her ways. i wondered what she is looking for. But I’ve stopped doing so a while ago. It was an utter waste of time and needless as well.

Things will still go on. work is work. as much as we abhor her ways, we can come to work daily, fulfill our duties, draw our deserved pay and continue to let days go by as they come.

Glad these days will be coming to an end for me in another 15.5 working days. New beginning. New challenges. Growth!

me too!

Coach sent us the list of PBs achieved during scsm and angkor wat by my team mates. Aww..i felt envious! a little left out of the action in a way.. i hope i get to join in the fun with the rest next year. it will be fun going for races together in a team.

then i decided to look back to my seremban timing. find on the left the timing i posted in july this year. 1.56.47.

during scsm last sun, i did a 1.56.39! yayy..pb for me too! eh..8 sec!

considering the following:

1. the longest distance i've ran for the past 1month was 12km.
2. my weekly mileage for the past 1 month averaged 40km. I don't know how i survived the time i wasn't running. =P
3. I ran 8km hard MR on the Sat before Sun's scsm. Don't tell coach i didn't complete the prescribed distance because my legs went jelly.

Coach was ardently against me going for sun's half. he nagged..nagged and nagged alot. basically he felt i have not trained for it and it was disruptive to my marathon training.

but i still went. =X

yesterday i suffered =( mid way through intervals my legs wanted to give up. i was on the verge of confessing i did sun so that i can be let off from the rest of the sets. but coach pushed me on. i was so breathless i nearly teared. i bet i must have ran very barrel-like because i felt my striding went all hay-wire.

coach said, "if it's not painful, then it's not training."

he has a good goal for me and that is something i want to achieve. the determinant to whether i can achieve it will be how hard i train now. =)

up we go!

I am happy =) just glad that my skills are valued. I will be taking a step up from where I am and I am excited about the change.

I am looking forward to learning new things and challenging myself further. i may fall short now but I will catch up.

I believe the tide is turning for us. i took a plunge into goals I have set for myself. I bagged 2 of them and the last one is very close now.

As I verbalized my life development to my interviewers, i am embarking into the season of “doing”. It is putting the things I learned into use and gaining experience. Learning must continue but not in the form of academic for now. It is learning on the job now and I am praying for good mentors in the next phase of my career.

It will be very steep learning curve up ahead but I know I will get there. Regardless how steep, I believe I will move the higher level as long I keep on moving.

I remember there was one adventure race which dearie and I participated in. we were made to bike up fraser's hill on our mountain bikes. It was really agonizing as the road was winding and the going up seemed never ending. Our legs were tired after many hours of running (my hamstrings were tight and pulling) and with our tires pumped up to only 40psi, the journey was made tougher. The markers on the road were inaccurate and we could see no end to the road ahead of us. Several times, I broke down and was close to giving up. During then, dearie was there; he hugged me and told me to keep going. And he helped distract the pain i was experiencing by singing backstreet boys’ songs to me too. (I called him backside boy =P)

It warms my heart to know i have loved ones with me in this journey. I know I will get there. I'm going for the top and nothing less. I promised i will do all of you proud and my journey continues.

training has been feeling hard these days. i don't seem to find myself getting faster and my legs aren't holding up well enough either. they've been sore and achy more often than they should..and they take a darn long time to recover =( i wondered if pain is good, no pain no gain?

made some marked progress in my revision over the long hari raya weekend. i've covered much according to plan. counting down to the 2 weeks before the exam.

dearie and i were out shopping after the run. we were at city hall and there was a peugeot road show. we were awed by the 308 and i proclaimed it as my car-to-be (not knowing the price tag attached to it).. now that i know how much it costs, i'm wondering if i dreamt a little to far with the car-to-be. hmm..maybe in another 20-30 years' time? hahaha..

i am suppose to be revising but i decided that i am going to spend the night sending out job applications. i must scale higher.. and the only way is to seek for better prospects and move. it gets a little disappointing that none of my applications sent so far yielded an interview. yet, i shouldn't stop here, should i. keep finding. keep seeking. only those who seek will find. only those who keep climbing will reach the summit. and it's the top i am looking at.

i liked what dearie told me after the run at macritchie today. he was pointing out my upslope running technique..but i felt it is applicable to my career as well.

" keep looking up. look at the top of the slope and run with your head up. when u look up the ground will look flat. if you keep looking down, it'll be like a never ending upslope. look up, open up your strides and run up."

running is so much like life. =)

i dream to be somebody

I got it, finally. I’ve got the cpa in my bag now. One more in another 2 months time which I will make it happen.

Yielding the fruit of labour is such exhilaration. To me it’s an affirmation that hard work does pay off and nothing in this world comes easily.

I am grateful how dearie stayed by my side every night I had to mug through exams and endured my rant about how tired I was. My mummy’s jia you never fail to light up my day and lift my spirit. Ma and Pa’s support and care helped me take the first step out. Christin is a role model to me that learning never stops.

This is bonus added to my accreditation but it’s not the end. It is the beginning. Now is the time to head out and earn back what I have put in. it’s a lot of time, money and effort. I have learnt so much, surely I must put it to some use at least.

I have achieved most if not all the goals I set out for myself more than 2.5 years ago, when I stepped into this company. Now I am setting new goals and working to achieve them. My next goals in sight are:

1. Find a new job which will utilize acquired knowledge and skills

2. Earn and save more money so I can recoup my depleted savings

3. Find a good company and position to move into, so I can gather valuable experience of the next level

No more academic learning for now; practicality and experience are the foci.

Those who have looked down upon me, I am proving you wrong. In the next couple of years, I want to be someone who can lift my head high before you and tell you, “you’ve been wrong about me. I am not a wreck and learning is not useless. I am someone now.”

training & assignment-ing

A relaxed day at work. supervisor on business trip. Boss not around. 2 colleagues on half day leave. It seems like the weekend came around early this week.

With my work done, I can type a blog entry and work on my corp finance assignment. It’s a pretty tedious assignment and hopefully we can get things worked out during discussion tomorrow.

Started on the ‘full package’ training this week. Swim was tough for I haven’t done proper swimming (don’t include the wadding at pa’s pool) in a long while. The 1.5km took me forever to finish. My strokes felt heavy and ‘splashy’.. it just made me miss swimming with iggy. Under his coaching, at least I felt more streamlined and efficient..now I am back to my zabalang strokes..and my kicking is back to the break-surface-of-the-water sort. Maybe I should do some kicking drills next week.

The runs with the new team were awesome. I really enjoyed their company and I love chit chatting with different individuals during warm up and cool downs. =) I hope to integrate into the team better in the days to come.

My body is taking some time to get used to the new form of training. I’ve stopped feeling jittery about resting.

Will be obedient and listen to what coach says..and keeping my fingers crossed, it will enable me to achieve a pb at Tokyo!

the quest starts now

The quest began yesterday. It took some mustering of courage to click upon the send button; like tossing a coin into the fountain and believing that the wish made will come true.

Too much has signaled a need for change. Being in this position has caused many things to fall beyond my grasp.

While I went through pages of vacancies out there, something sparked in me. I realized I need not constrain myself in this small pail. There is an ocean out there. I have the necessary qualification, know-how and experience; there are organizations which are looking for these skill sets. They are willing to offer a position up for similar kind of work..and the pay is a considerable leap. Everything tells me to get out and smell the fresh air out there.

Perhaps something new may pose uncertainty. Perhaps it might be worse. But i’ll never know till I try.

Setting everything aside, I must tread into unknown waters.

Don’t have to wait till graduation or for that reply from icpas. I am starting my quest now! Charge!!

staying sharp & focused

It’s time to focus again. My thoughts have been wandering wild and affecting my ability to concentrate.

My priority list goes:

1. assignment in 2 weeks. Got to get that out.

2. exam in 1 month. Clear this and I’m ready for graduation.

3. training with km for the next 3 months. I feel uncomfortable cutting out all the mileage I used to do. I’ve been told to pick up swimming, something I’m not good at. But I know I must follow what he says so that I can benefit from the training.

4. job hunting. I feel uncertain with the applications because I have yet to bag my masters nor have icpas reverted. My colleague put in her application 10 months ago and is still waiting for them to respond too.

5. interviews.. new job. Really want to push my career up by a notch. I’ve been moving in gear 1 for a long while. Time to go to gear 2.

Focus..look ahead..and stay sharp. =)

term 3 cleared

Really thankful to clear both papers for last term. These are the best term for the year so far. I am truly down to my last paper for the course – Corporate Finance. This term is the final lap of this race and I must do it well and complete it in good style.

I shall leave my words of thanks till the very end; give everyone a hug and tell my loved ones how much I appreciate the support and encouragement they have showered on me during this journey.

Meantime, it is dearie’s turn to the battle. Wishing him all the best for his micro-processor assessment this evening. His exams are drawing very near too. We will work hard together.

I’m still waiting for my icpas response which is taking too long. 2^nd intensive for corp finance in 2.5 weeks. Assignment and presentation are due on the Sunday of the 2^nd intensive. This will have a 50% weightage. After 2^nd intensive, another 3 weeks before my final exam of the year. I am getting so close I can literally smell the graduation scroll in my hands!

Yes, I am looking around for career advancement. Time to move on.

Oh ya, out of random, still can’t decide when I should go for my haircut. Hmm..

flashes her fangs

For a moment I felt frustrated with the disparity of work load. Here I am slogging away since the moment I stepped into office, while she is sitting there dozing off. And how can she possibly be paid more than me?

I’m a little overwhelmed as I have barely touched my work and have been working on solely the work of the colleague I am covering. I have to shoulder the entire load while I have another colleague in the department surfing the net for the morning and dozing off in the after noon.

I cannot fathom why and this is a strong push factor to get myself out of this rut.