cheery+quest

Cheery colours make tricia a cheery girl. I was cladded in nice U2 orange top (dearie bought this), wore flowery earrings dearie made and in the toilet, I can “admire” my fushia pink “inner-beauty”.

Recently I’ve been clearing my waredrobe gradually. A colleague commented on how retro a pair of pants I wore looked. I felt a slight tinge of quirkiness. Checkered and flaring at the ends, it is indeed a pretty cheesy pair of pants to think about it. after washing it clean, I folded it and stuffed it into the “reject” bag. I’ve been clearing steadily clothes I’ve owned for years; some either worn with fluff or simply too outdated to be even worn out to the market. By clearing them out, I am making myself wear the newer and trendier clothes I’ve got. I don’t want to auntify myself all the time..i’m a young professional and I ought to dress like one =)

Reading runners world today, there was a page on a anorexia girl who wrote in to running doc for advice to lose weight. She’s intaking 600cal a day and exercises off 300cal by running. She found her weight stagnated and sought running doc for a reason why. The response from the readers on the comments section was overwhelming. Many shared their journeys out of the eating disorder and how it ruined the many good years of their lives and wrecked their health.

A lady’s quest to stay in shape..or even to shed weight never ends. Because of the “perfect” image forged by the media on how beautiful women should look (read: tall and slim), women chase after this mindless dream of looking slim. I confess that I am one of those women who yearns so much to lose a couple of pounds. But I’ve gone through a journey myself, and it taught me that I must not do it at the expense of my health. It feels exhilarating to stand on the scale and find I’ve gone down by a few kgs..but the dizzy spells and rumbling stomach are not the price that should come with it.

I’ve experimented with many products in the market that promised weight loss..name it, I’ve probably tried them..but all failed to work. there is no miracle pill to lose weight; the only way is to watch your diet and exercise. Watching diet does not equate to stop eating or just surviving on apples and cabbage. It means giving the body quality food to stay satiated and energy to exercise.

In my life time, I’ve gone to my lowest of 43kgs to highest of 51kg..now I am hovering around 46-47kgs. albeit feeling heavy and fleshy sometimes, I will not go into drastic dieting nor starving. I enjoy my Cadbury chocolate.. occasional oreos.. my brown rice.. veg.. noodles.. ban mian.. all the nice food out there.. I do not stop eating. I stopped counting calories too..but I do keep a food log as it’s been a long time habit. I eat till I’m 70-80% full; not 100%. I eat so as to keep training. training allows me to eat. Both go hand in hand.

Ok..i’m still lamenting about the last 2-3kgs I want to lose..i don’t quite have the determination to cut out some food I love… and I can’t afford more time to train given the commitments I have.

Maybe I should give myself a challenge. I actually made it to the 44kg mark when I was training more intensively. I can start this out at end of October. This is a healthy challenge.. and I will be preparing myself for SCSM and ultra in december too!