He’s a thorn in our lives; some one I wish I could remove for good. Why can’t he learn and grow up? Have we not been accepting enough? He has always seen me as a failure; I’ll never forget the words he used to condemn my life with. Over the years I’ve learnt to ignore his never ending wants. Just leave them, after a while he forgets about them. However these days he’ll jack his wants up and goes out to get them on his own, after which claiming from the company. Argh. This is ridiculous and I wonder how can I put a stop to it. Mum is torn..and she always give in. I’m infuriated but there’s nothing I can do. This will be my driving force.
What I envisage and working towards:
- graduate with masters in 1 year’s time. Take graduate photos with family =)
- change job. Hopefully something better paying and with better prospects
- work hard to earn more and do well in career
- have a kid!
- buy a bigger flat
- move mum in so she can take care of the kid
- earn enough to be able to go for family holidays once a year
- dearie and I drive a Subaru forester =)
The above is still subjected to approval with dearie..but that’s what I dream of having and those are what I’ll be working towards.
If u haven’t notice, he’s not in our plan because I don’t intend to include him in the first place. mum is the closest kin I have next to dearie.. and she will always be one of the driving forces behind me. I remembered working hard during exams and what kept me going was always mummy’s encouragement. She never fails to tell me “jia you, do your best” in the morning before my exams. I learnt not to be a burden to her and I will continue to do that..i want to be the one to lighten her burden..and in the years to come, I want to carry her burden for her.
We don’t just live for ourselves..our lives intertwined with the loved ones around us. I live for dearie..my mum..my family, friends..and myself =)
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